I also had a HUGE HIV/blood phobia. I wasted 3 years of my life worrying about ZERO risk factors and I can tell you 100% u had ZERO risk. I fuilt guilt about having meaningless unprotected sex with multiple partners before I met my fiancé, but I still felt guilt. I was also terrified of blood! I always thought what if I touched a door handle with blood and I had a little scrap on my hand..... What a stupid worry huh? Please don't waste years of your life like I did.... Now if you had unprotected sex, or shared a needle with this person then sure you would techniqually have a risk, but that doesn't mean you would have if.
Here is what you need to focus on.
You NEVER had a risk
You tested NEGATIVE
0.3% of Americans have HIV (if you're American) not 3%. 0.3%
Accept the facts and not the feeling of guilt. Understand that if you never share needles, or have unprotected sex with a person of a unknown status you'll never get HIV. I guess if you are in a brutal car crash with a person who has HIV you could possibly get it then?...
Anyways, I had to learn to accept the facts, accept my negative tests, and not believe my guilt and anxiety over proven science. I promise you that the incident you explained did not give you HIV, you have negative test results to prove that.
I have been in your shoes bud. I was in them for 3 long awful years I'll never get back.
Thanks for the encouragement! It helps to talk it out. I had a friend explain to me yesterday that for there to have been any risk that she would have to 1, be positive, 2 be bleeding profusely, and I would have had to had a large bleeding gaping wound. Trying to accept that truth and my 11 week oraquick results. The thought of testing at 12 weeks for the sake of the oraquick 12 week recommendations just causes more anxiety for me.