Career Anxiety

[restartinglife]

I'm  35 year old male and have had anxiety and obsessive thinking for the last ten years. Sometimes it gets worse and sometimes its bearable. Right now I'm in the middle of on one the worse cycles.

Last evening I met with a group of people who are my ex-colleagues. Things got a little chatty and I indicated that I had a tough time working together with a couple of females in my team. It was a casual conversation said it was a torture to work with them but now things are better. This group of ex-colleagues live the in the same area as my current 'two' teammates.

After the conversation was over and as I was driving home I suddenly thought what if any of these folks know my current teammates and if they disclose this conversation. I never mentioned my colleagues by name but one could easily find out using my name and the workplace. Should my teammates come to know and if they report it to the manager, I was thinking I may lose my job. I'm the sole income earner in the family and losing a job can be devastating. The intention was not to defame or demean anybody, it was an innocent conversation where I never mentioned any names. Just my experience at work. But now I'm worried.

Can someone get in to trouble for taking about the work experience outside of work should a teammate come to know about it? Again never took any names and I did indicate that things were tought to begin with but are now much better. But just afraid that things might be lost in translation and it may reach my teammates a bit differently.

Sorry if I'm all over the place with this question. Just been thinking about it all evening yesterday and the whole night and continues this morning.

[kyle82]

I think holding a positive and amicable attitude towards everything including you colleagues or teammates may be of help. Also, you can have some merry-making moments with you family so that you develop a better gregarious feeling soon. I hope you are obviously an above average social human being.

[anxiety860]

You will be fine. You said you don't like working with some people. No big deal. You aren't going to lose your job over this and more then likely nobody you work with will ever find out. I'm sure the people you told this too have better things to do than go and tell on you. Like Denzel Washington says. It's not what you know it's what you can prove. I do understand where you are coming from though. I rarely ever talk bad about people but when I do I think oh my gosh... What if they find out? What if the person I told tells people? What if this. What if that. It's anxiety and it *****. You're going to be fine. No way you lose your job over this.