Hello people :)
Ok well my story will be a little bit long, here it goes:
Last March I was having some kind of insomnia, and I have always been an anxious person especially the past 5 years it has increased but was never too severe that it caused me physical symptoms. But as I was saying last march I took xanax 0.5 mg daily at night to sleep for 25 days (took the xanax from a friend). I then stopped cold turkey and had bad bad withdrawals. You name it I got it, anyways it started to get a little bit better in terms of physical symptoms after almost a month from stopping. But for some reason since that I feel my anxiety has became worse than ever before I started taking the xanax, and also I started getting panic attacks where in the past I never had a panic attack ever. I decied to visit a pyschiatrist, he sat with me for half an hour and told me that there is no way that I am still experiencing xanax withdrawal after a month of stopping it as I only took it 25 days at 0.5 mg. He said that the withdrawal would have lasted maximum a week in my case. He then told me that I have panic disorder, general anxiety disorder and social anxiety, he gave me luxtanil to help me sleep and seroxat CR 25 mg (paxil). After reading horror stories of paxil, I decided not to take it so he gave me cipralex (Lexapro) 10 mg and said its safe and helpful and its side effects and withdrawal are much less than paxil. I am still afraid to start the medication to tell you the truth. But 1 thing for sure Thank God I dont get the panic attacks anymore, and I do not feel depressed or down that much either, and my social anxiety is very minimal and it does not interfer with my daily life at all (i.e I can deal with people either at work or on the street fine and am normal but sometimes I get a little uncomfortable around strangers but not that much). My only problem that still bothers me a little is anxiety, I am still an anxious person but also Thank God not as much as I was the past 2 months since stopping the xanax. I feel i became as anxious as before I started the xanax (which means its not affecting me physically anymore, but more menatly). Also my major problem that is still bothering me since I stopped using xanax is the insomnia, sometimes I have less insomnia and sometimes is severe but it is the only thing that did not get better after the other withdrawal symptoms subcided. Now I just need a piece of advise from anyone here: should I take the cipralex (lexapro) and give it a try ? Is it worth it in my case to take a SSRI ? I mean will it be worth putting up with side effects at the begining of the treatment and worth going through withdrawal symptoms again ? Will it help me or I just should not take it ? As you see my case is not that severe at all, and might be provoked by xanax withdrawal more than a disorder.
Thanks guys for your time and support :)