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Death dreams are becoming too much....
Since becoming ill again with anxiety i have been having the worst dreams of death and destruction ever. I have just woke up from having a seriously terriable dream. It started like this, i was in a classroom as a child and i picked up a piece of chalk went over to the board and wrote ' we are at war'. Then i kept rubbing it out and writing it bigger and clearer cause it was so messy, the chalk just wouldn't write properly, i finally did it but the teacher didn't understand me cause she spoke french and was indicating to me to just go sit down and everyone was totally ignoring me just getting on with their work, laughing etc..... I then felt this urgency to run outside to get help as i knew something awlful was about to happen..... as i ran outside i suddenly became an adult again and was standing in some kind of army barracks...but i wasn't a solider just me. I then turned to be faced with this 30ft long bomb just sitting there next to the building i had just walked out of. i started screaming but the scream was slient and no one seemed worried by this bomb just sitting there, with people just aimlessly walking to and fro like it was a piece of the furniture but i knew it was going to cause alot of trouble..... All of a sudden a massive noise came from overhead which was deafening and made me put my hands over my ears, as i looked up a massive bomb was heading for us, just falling from the sky, i screamed for everyone to run and then everyone took notice and realised they were about to die and chaos broke out, everyone started running and screaming in all different directions and the panic was over whelming. The bomb was getting closer and closer until it finally hit with this massive wizzing sound followed by a massive boom....I actually felt the force of the blast hit me from behind (this is how vivid it was) but i wasn't thrown off my feet, i kept running, This little child was running along side me and i shouted at her to grab my hand, and we ran together, i was having to pull her for her to keep up with me. People were dying all around, arms, legs flying everywhere.....
Suddenly there was another massively loud noise and a boeing 747 came hurtling overhead of us in a massive fireball, one of it's wings hanging by a thread about 50ft from us, everyone turned and started to run in the opposite direction cause it was heading straight for us..... But as we turned the sky filled with bombs and they were falling fast and it became almost impossiable to get away from them, the little girl who held my hand got pulled away from me and a bomb caught her an blew her limb from limb, i screamed and just kept running. Looking up into the sky to see these bombs heading towards us while trying to avoid them the only place i could think to go was under a car to hide from it all....so i dived under this car all the time explosions going off, i held my head in my hands trying to block it all out. Suddenly two soliders, came and pulled me out from under the car and put a gun against my head, one was english the other german, the german guy held this gun frimly to my temple, the english guy said to me in the scariest voice ever, 'Now it's ur turn to die' and the german pulled the trigger.....
With that i woke up.......as u can imagine pretty shaken, i'm getting them every other day now. They are always on the same subject, of the end of the world, death, destruction and total chaos......
Can my mind be that messed up????
Suddenly there was another massively loud noise and a boeing 747 came hurtling overhead of us in a massive fireball, one of it's wings hanging by a thread about 50ft from us, everyone turned and started to run in the opposite direction cause it was heading straight for us..... But as we turned the sky filled with bombs and they were falling fast and it became almost impossiable to get away from them, the little girl who held my hand got pulled away from me and a bomb caught her an blew her limb from limb, i screamed and just kept running. Looking up into the sky to see these bombs heading towards us while trying to avoid them the only place i could think to go was under a car to hide from it all....so i dived under this car all the time explosions going off, i held my head in my hands trying to block it all out. Suddenly two soliders, came and pulled me out from under the car and put a gun against my head, one was english the other german, the german guy held this gun frimly to my temple, the english guy said to me in the scariest voice ever, 'Now it's ur turn to die' and the german pulled the trigger.....
With that i woke up.......as u can imagine pretty shaken, i'm getting them every other day now. They are always on the same subject, of the end of the world, death, destruction and total chaos......
Can my mind be that messed up????
LOL....oop's!! Well will be thinking of all my long distance friends today...... and will do, chat soon and take care xxx
Who is the party for. Well doh! is your birthday is it not? Heard you were 21 again. LOL. So I will wish you a happy birthday here and now. I know it is tomorrow. But I like to get in early. Have a great time of it whatever you decide to do x x x x.
Oi shut up about Freddie Kruger u know....HAHA that dude gave me many a sleepless night i can tell ya....Ohh boy!!
So who ya having the birthday party for D? Thats very sweet though that the drinks are on me......AWWWWWWWWWWW bless. I'll try n have a good day tomorow, drag my sorry butt out of the house and go somewhere, even if it's only to the end of my road, thought about taking the girls down the pub for a pub dinner, weatherspoons is ok, family and all that...... but have to keep an eye on the little one she does like to throw back her vodka.....LMAO! NO i'm just JOKING! No need for social services guys.....
You know though i might start trying to do that, what u do, try to know when i'm in dreams and control them, must take alot of practice, but sounds alot of fun!! Thankfully had a good night sleep last night without remembering any disturbing madness.
Hey i wonder if there are alot of people out there who can 'feel' and 'sense' things that suffer from anxiety disorders? maybe it comes as a package.....hmmmmm???
Anyway have a great day today, be good and chat soon u x
So who ya having the birthday party for D? Thats very sweet though that the drinks are on me......AWWWWWWWWWWW bless. I'll try n have a good day tomorow, drag my sorry butt out of the house and go somewhere, even if it's only to the end of my road, thought about taking the girls down the pub for a pub dinner, weatherspoons is ok, family and all that...... but have to keep an eye on the little one she does like to throw back her vodka.....LMAO! NO i'm just JOKING! No need for social services guys.....
You know though i might start trying to do that, what u do, try to know when i'm in dreams and control them, must take alot of practice, but sounds alot of fun!! Thankfully had a good night sleep last night without remembering any disturbing madness.
Hey i wonder if there are alot of people out there who can 'feel' and 'sense' things that suffer from anxiety disorders? maybe it comes as a package.....hmmmmm???
Anyway have a great day today, be good and chat soon u x
"But I still like to lie between the two states and take myself off to places."
"Are we having a birthday party on Wednesday? Drinks are all on you"
I'm in, but unfortunately not that good yet with taking myself off to places, so you will have to come visit me guys. I'm darn good at doing other stuff in that state, though I really don't think all of it would be suitable at a birthday party. But Cuisine francaise; no problem.
Let me say I can sense danger if it is happening to those close to me. I had a mate die when I was 21. At the hour he died I was crippled up in pain. People had no idea what was wrong with me. The pain passed soon after. The next day we found out about the friend and people put the two times together. It was the exact time that he was dying that I was crippled up in pain. But I don't get much of that. I am more into the dream aspect of things. I once said I knew when I was dreaming and felt like I could walk through dreams. Sounds whacky. But I think it all came about because I was spending so much time engulfed in dreams. Reading, diaries and the likes. That I began to teach myself to know when I was falling alseep and stay in the state between the waken state and the dream state. Then I took it one step further and could tell I was asleep. Was like a big playground for me. But I still like to lie between the two states and take myself off to places. Something I do often.
Looks like we are one in the same. Either both mad or both gifted. LOL. And if anybody answers that one the wrong way we will gang up on you. LOL. I can do my Freddy Kruger impression. Get you in your dreams. LOL.
Looks like we are one in the same. Either both mad or both gifted. LOL. And if anybody answers that one the wrong way we will gang up on you. LOL. I can do my Freddy Kruger impression. Get you in your dreams. LOL.
Hiya Hun hope ur good and well, all i can say is WOW!!! U really took the meaning from that dream and got it spot on.... I've realised that the girl who i was running with was me and i got blown to bits...mentally i did as a child and i have never been the same since... Ur very good at dreams hey!! I found my dream guy...LOL Ok get it.....yeah bad joke!!
As for actually predicting death, i'm shocked!!! cause I can do this also, I have had a couple of dreams where the actual event has come true.... No one who i tell really believes me only those who i tell b4 the event do, then they look at me like OMG and think i'm some creepy person..lol.... I dreamt about the tsunami on Boxing day a couple of yrs ago a couple of days b4 it happened and also the Twin Towers terrorist attack in America, a day b4, but the thing is i can't tell the differnce between just a dream and a event about to happen cause they are always lucid......It always feel so real!!
I did have a major dream about the Thames Barrier bursting and flooding the majority of London, everyone in North London started heading for Alexandra Palace because it's the highest point in London but not alot of people made it, most drowned..... So if this does happen in the near future it's here in black and white on Medhelp!!!
Do u predict things while ur awake though? Like can u sense things others can't....I can do this also but won't go into it on here cause people will think i've totally lost the plot....Another friend on here can and she also suffers badly from anxiety and agoraphobia, it's almost as if i've met my twin.... I think D you would call people like us sensitives...kool huh!! Although alot of people would call us nut jobs...lol
Thank-you for taking the time to tell me this, means alot and also thanks to the rest of the guys who took time to write here.....
To nora, thank-you are saying my advice is supportive, it's means alot to know i may be helping others in their time of darkness and suffering.....You kow if i had a wish i would wish for everyone's pain to be taken away and for us all to live happy and peaceful lives... Well i guess though if God can't do that then one one can huh!!
Chat soon all xxx
As for actually predicting death, i'm shocked!!! cause I can do this also, I have had a couple of dreams where the actual event has come true.... No one who i tell really believes me only those who i tell b4 the event do, then they look at me like OMG and think i'm some creepy person..lol.... I dreamt about the tsunami on Boxing day a couple of yrs ago a couple of days b4 it happened and also the Twin Towers terrorist attack in America, a day b4, but the thing is i can't tell the differnce between just a dream and a event about to happen cause they are always lucid......It always feel so real!!
I did have a major dream about the Thames Barrier bursting and flooding the majority of London, everyone in North London started heading for Alexandra Palace because it's the highest point in London but not alot of people made it, most drowned..... So if this does happen in the near future it's here in black and white on Medhelp!!!
Do u predict things while ur awake though? Like can u sense things others can't....I can do this also but won't go into it on here cause people will think i've totally lost the plot....Another friend on here can and she also suffers badly from anxiety and agoraphobia, it's almost as if i've met my twin.... I think D you would call people like us sensitives...kool huh!! Although alot of people would call us nut jobs...lol
Thank-you for taking the time to tell me this, means alot and also thanks to the rest of the guys who took time to write here.....
To nora, thank-you are saying my advice is supportive, it's means alot to know i may be helping others in their time of darkness and suffering.....You kow if i had a wish i would wish for everyone's pain to be taken away and for us all to live happy and peaceful lives... Well i guess though if God can't do that then one one can huh!!
Chat soon all xxx
Dreams. The one thing about life I love most of all. To understand them is to understand ourselves a little bit better. Imagine your mind was a computer. Each day it takes in loads of things. Everything that happens in the day. Come the end of the day we fall asleep. Now that computer that is your brain kicks into action. It has the job of sorting out everything that you took in during the day. Sorting it into two groupings. Long term memory and short term memory. Long term memory are the things we will need to keep hold of. Short term the things we don't need to remember. But we see all this like a movie playing out in the form of a dream. In order for that to happen in comes the latent dream content. Latent content is a bit like gibberish. It has no meaning at all to us. It is just there to make up the story. So to try and find out the meaning of the dream we must be able to tell the latent content and strip it away. Which isn't always easy. There are other things we dream of too. Fears. Or upcoming events. Things that would be on our minds. Plus there are different types of dreams too. It sounds like your dream was a lucid dream. They are so life like. You can wake from them and it can take a few minutes for you to realise that you were only dreaming. That is how real they can seem.
Your dream seems to contain a lot of fear. A world falling apart. Silent screams. Like nobody can hear your screams at all. The teacher didn't understand you. So again we have this thing of others not understanding you. Bit like the screams. Again you are not heard. You are at war. With yourself and your anxiety. You rubbed it out and wrote it again and again. Much bigger. But again it seems like nobody understands or hears you. You seem so alone in the dream. Which could be a reflection of your life and how you are feeling. You are also running in the dream. Both the child and the adult. A reflection of how long you have been running. The explosions could be the anxiety. Which again you hid from. Under the car. It is like everything is happening at once. So much stuff falling from the sky. No matter where you run there is always something falling. Waiting for you.
That is just how I read into things. Not saying any of it relects your life in any way at all. It is just that if we dig deeper and take a closer look we can see a lot more in our dreams. A bit like tapping into the subconscious memory. Which is what they try and do with various kinds of theraphy. Because that is were changes can be made. That is were our fears sit. Be they old or new. Lucid dreams can be frightening. Especially in the form of nightmares. Unless you are into that kind of thing.
I am a death dreamer. But the thing with my dreams is that I dream of people who do actually die. Had a dream that we were making arrangements for my father's funeral. It was the next day that he dropped dead at my feet. It was whacky. But it was no big surprise that I had the dream. Because my mum tends to dream the same way too. I once told her that I had a dream of an aunt. That I saw her sitting with my father. ( Who was now dead ) Had not heard a word from this relative in years. My mum rang her house. Only to be told she was in hospital dying from cancer. Matter of days to live. We can put them down as fluke dreams. My success rate is high. It is not something I enjoy dreaming about. But I know the real ones, the ones that will happen, from the just dreams. I can dream of deaths but know they are not like the ones that actually happen. There is a difference. So used to them by now. Which is why I love dreams so much. They can be good and they can be bad. But they can't harm you. The more you learn to more educated you make yourself and you come to accept them. Even to the point were you know you are in a dream. If you reach that stage it is amazing. Because you can do things you fear the most in the waken world. May sound a bit whacked. But I believe in my dreams and do write them all down. The dream world is just as much a part of my life as the waken world.
Your dream seems to contain a lot of fear. A world falling apart. Silent screams. Like nobody can hear your screams at all. The teacher didn't understand you. So again we have this thing of others not understanding you. Bit like the screams. Again you are not heard. You are at war. With yourself and your anxiety. You rubbed it out and wrote it again and again. Much bigger. But again it seems like nobody understands or hears you. You seem so alone in the dream. Which could be a reflection of your life and how you are feeling. You are also running in the dream. Both the child and the adult. A reflection of how long you have been running. The explosions could be the anxiety. Which again you hid from. Under the car. It is like everything is happening at once. So much stuff falling from the sky. No matter where you run there is always something falling. Waiting for you.
That is just how I read into things. Not saying any of it relects your life in any way at all. It is just that if we dig deeper and take a closer look we can see a lot more in our dreams. A bit like tapping into the subconscious memory. Which is what they try and do with various kinds of theraphy. Because that is were changes can be made. That is were our fears sit. Be they old or new. Lucid dreams can be frightening. Especially in the form of nightmares. Unless you are into that kind of thing.
I am a death dreamer. But the thing with my dreams is that I dream of people who do actually die. Had a dream that we were making arrangements for my father's funeral. It was the next day that he dropped dead at my feet. It was whacky. But it was no big surprise that I had the dream. Because my mum tends to dream the same way too. I once told her that I had a dream of an aunt. That I saw her sitting with my father. ( Who was now dead ) Had not heard a word from this relative in years. My mum rang her house. Only to be told she was in hospital dying from cancer. Matter of days to live. We can put them down as fluke dreams. My success rate is high. It is not something I enjoy dreaming about. But I know the real ones, the ones that will happen, from the just dreams. I can dream of deaths but know they are not like the ones that actually happen. There is a difference. So used to them by now. Which is why I love dreams so much. They can be good and they can be bad. But they can't harm you. The more you learn to more educated you make yourself and you come to accept them. Even to the point were you know you are in a dream. If you reach that stage it is amazing. Because you can do things you fear the most in the waken world. May sound a bit whacked. But I believe in my dreams and do write them all down. The dream world is just as much a part of my life as the waken world.
Hi Julie.
I'm sorry that you're having these bad dreams. And yes, you have extremely vivid and detailed dreams. Amazing.
The thing about dreams is that they tend to reflect, as ILADVOCATE says, either some past experiences or your present situation or most likely; a mixture of both. While they can show us what we might be afraid to face up to they also can show us our capacity that has not yet been revealed to us consciously. I believe they're always telling us something, sometimes they're quite clear, sometimes they need to be interpreted (preferably not by others though it sometimes can be useful to get some input from others.)
Since it doesn't feel right to interpret your dreams I will say this much; that your recurring dreams ARE trying to tell you something important. This assumption is based on what you're saying of having a general feeling of being unsafe and that you've pretty much had this feeling since you were a young child.
I can't be sure, and please take this with at least two grains of salt, but if your instincts tell you that your problems are connected with past experiences in a more profound and obscure manner than you'd really like them to be, then CBT might not be the right instrument to get to the real causes for them. CBT is a very good tool and as the brain can learn to become afraid of -whatever- really, changing our thoughts can be extremely effective, but CBT, is how I see it, quite "technical" in it's approach, and though that is exactly what is its primary strength it can also be a weakness if your problems are more complex. The devil is in the details. That's my experience.
The psyche is not exactly arithmetics. It operates in mysterious ways sometimes and we can't know for sure, in advance, what is going to work for us and not. I guess we just have to do what we think best at a certain point and give it a try and take it from there. Unexpected things can come into play and voila´; suddenly everything changes. That is also my experience.
You give so many people here wonderful support and advice and I really wish that you'll soon feel you're more in control of what's going on with you.
I suspect that all I've been saying here is more or less BS anyway, only you can know what you really need, but I hope you find some crumbs that lead you to a good place soon. You deserve to be happy. That is really all I know.
Nora
I'm sorry that you're having these bad dreams. And yes, you have extremely vivid and detailed dreams. Amazing.
The thing about dreams is that they tend to reflect, as ILADVOCATE says, either some past experiences or your present situation or most likely; a mixture of both. While they can show us what we might be afraid to face up to they also can show us our capacity that has not yet been revealed to us consciously. I believe they're always telling us something, sometimes they're quite clear, sometimes they need to be interpreted (preferably not by others though it sometimes can be useful to get some input from others.)
Since it doesn't feel right to interpret your dreams I will say this much; that your recurring dreams ARE trying to tell you something important. This assumption is based on what you're saying of having a general feeling of being unsafe and that you've pretty much had this feeling since you were a young child.
I can't be sure, and please take this with at least two grains of salt, but if your instincts tell you that your problems are connected with past experiences in a more profound and obscure manner than you'd really like them to be, then CBT might not be the right instrument to get to the real causes for them. CBT is a very good tool and as the brain can learn to become afraid of -whatever- really, changing our thoughts can be extremely effective, but CBT, is how I see it, quite "technical" in it's approach, and though that is exactly what is its primary strength it can also be a weakness if your problems are more complex. The devil is in the details. That's my experience.
The psyche is not exactly arithmetics. It operates in mysterious ways sometimes and we can't know for sure, in advance, what is going to work for us and not. I guess we just have to do what we think best at a certain point and give it a try and take it from there. Unexpected things can come into play and voila´; suddenly everything changes. That is also my experience.
You give so many people here wonderful support and advice and I really wish that you'll soon feel you're more in control of what's going on with you.
I suspect that all I've been saying here is more or less BS anyway, only you can know what you really need, but I hope you find some crumbs that lead you to a good place soon. You deserve to be happy. That is really all I know.
Nora
I do suffered from severe anxiety disorder and agroraphoia,i was so dissapointed at myself thesedays that i could hardly spent time inside a restaurant or a supermarket,my life has just become smaller and smaller,this is so depressed,at my age of 24 i really hate this situation as it is atm.
In everyday life i feel like i have very little control over what is happening to me with the agaoraphobia. I'm so utterly frustrated with it and just feel extremely vunerable when i'm out and about that it's too much to take. Did attend CBT but found attending the sessions extremely difficult, due to leaving home and so now am waiting to hear from another team who can do home visits, just is taking longer than i'd hoped.
I have ever since i was a very young child had bad things happen that i have been totally and completely out of control of and the older i am getting the more bagage is being piled on top and the more weight i feel i am having to carry. I just don't know how to put all of the **** from the past behind me, each time i think i have something else happens that causes it all to resurface and off i go again with having the anxiety attacks and then my agoraphobia rages......
This world feels extremely unsafe and i don't trust anything or anyone init......I don't even trust myself.
As for the dreams i seem to always be the one shouting from the roof top that something bad is gona happen and no one pays any attention to me..... Unitl its too late. I always wana save the world and stop others suffering but no one cares if i live about me.
I have ever since i was a very young child had bad things happen that i have been totally and completely out of control of and the older i am getting the more bagage is being piled on top and the more weight i feel i am having to carry. I just don't know how to put all of the **** from the past behind me, each time i think i have something else happens that causes it all to resurface and off i go again with having the anxiety attacks and then my agoraphobia rages......
This world feels extremely unsafe and i don't trust anything or anyone init......I don't even trust myself.
As for the dreams i seem to always be the one shouting from the roof top that something bad is gona happen and no one pays any attention to me..... Unitl its too late. I always wana save the world and stop others suffering but no one cares if i live about me.
This may be a reaction to a traumatic event in your life or just general fears of death or aspects of your life. The dream doesn't sound that markedly abnormal. Thoughts that we experience while we are awake for us to function must be stable. Dreams, however are the opposite and show what we might be afraid to face up to. It would be best to speak to a talk therapist about what is going on and explain the dreams and then they could perhaps understand how they relate to any real world issues or emotional concerns you have and what are the best steps to take from there.
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