Hello there, so sorry for what you went through! It sounds like it was very serious, and I agree, you're lucky to be here, in one piece!
I wanted to clarify something with you....you stated that you've finished taking the narcotics, I'm assuming you mean opioid pain pills? What were you on, and for how long? Were you taking them regularly? When did you take your last pill?
If you took pain pills for any length of time, with any regularity, most likely your body developed a dependency to them, and when you stopped, you experienced some of the typical withdrawal symptoms (for instance, insomnia is a BIG one). I'm hearing from your post a LOT of things that absolutely could be 100% related to the pain pill cessation.
I would just caution you to be very careful with the Xanax, as it will also lead to dependency if taken regularly. If you're taking it for sleep, quite honestly, there are better options. If your insomnia is being caused by the opiate detox, the ONLY thing that's REALLY going to work is TIME.
Also, if you are indeed dealing with some level of opiate detox, your emotions will suffer as well. There is a physical AND an emotional withdrawal from pain pills. It's normal to feel anxious, restless, emotionally labile, tearful, etc etc. Again, that's something that will just take some time to normalize. If that's a factor, I wouldn't make ANY determination or guesses about any possible PTSD or otherwise, until you've allowed yourself enough time to recover from the opiate detox.
If you are going to take the Xanax, I would really recommend only taking it here and there, sporadically, for when anxiety is very high. I wouldn't recommend taking it with any kind of regularity (is every day, or even every other day). The only way you can take Xanax regularly without the risk of dependency is if you limit the course of treatment to a couple of weeks, tops.
Hang in there!!
Thank you very much for your explanation on the opiate detox. I was admitted in the hospital for 3 days and was on oxy pill form 2x a day also along with delaudid IV. When I was released I was on oxy pill form 2x a day and delaudid pill form 3x a day. I decreased that over time and have now been off the narcotics for well over a week.
I still had some pain so they prescribed me with tramadol. I took that for 2 days and stopped it immediately as I did not like the way it made me feel. I have been taking tylenol as needed and decreasing that now as well.
The doctor did stress that this could be due to the withdrawl and detox of the prescribed pills. I actually broke down and started crying (extremely rare for me, but not rare in the last 3 weeks) I am very emotional about what happened with the accident and I get very emotional when talking about it. She said she would like me to see a trusted therapist that she recommends and have an individual session.
Overall her biggest thing was the take the pills (yes as needed) and try to get me back to being able to sleep and live my life.
I am going to take my first one tonight if I am experiencing the restlessness that I am right now.
Thanks again for your explanation and stressing that this could very well be due to the detox. I personally think it's really a culmination of everything related to the accident and post recovery.
and thank you for your support and well wishes!
Thanks for the additional info. I think the opiates are definitely playing a role in how you're feeling, which means you'll feel better with time. Obviously, therapy is a good idea, just in general, especially after experiencing something like that. Just keep in mind that some of your emotional lability is probably related to the opiates, not just the traumatic experience!
Update us on how you're doing!