Does anybody have social situations where they feel like exploding?

[Omusicgame]

I feel as if I am going to explode sometimes in Social Situations.  This usually happens sometimes with my family, and my In Laws.  RIght now, and yesterday I have been dwelling constantly about going to my In Laws (wifes family) on Thanksgiving.  Idk why I have been thinking about it so much, I hate it.  For many years, people in her family have belittled me, put me down, made me feel like scum.  I just can't seem to get over this.  Over and over again I just constantly  think about it.  And I know this is going to go on for many many years in the future.  Idk, its just insanity that I'm thinking about one day a year right now. I wish it could stop, I wish it could stop, I pray it would go away and it never comes back ever again.

[AnxiousNoMore]

What is the reason that they choose to talk down to you and what is the nature of the conversation?

I wouldn't go to a place where people belittle me, imo but I want to hear the answer to my question as it will help figure out what is going on.

[Omusicgame]

Well, its my wife's family, and it usually starts with her dad always looking mad at me, you know how father in laws are  Then it goes to her uncles busting my balls then her cousins acting weird around me.  THey're just Alien to me, and its been 14 years i been going there.  Oh well, i tell my wife, and all she says is, "That's how my family is, thats how my family is." Great compassion huh.  I've had thoughts of shooting em up or when i'm 50 most those old bastards will be on their death bed.  Then we'll see who's laughing last.  THat's pretty messed up I know, but hey, what else can i say.

[AnxiousNoMore]

it is difficult to figure whether there is a problem or if you are just worried that one exists. Some people don't have faces that look happy but that doesn't make them angry.
From your description, it seems they don't say anything nasty to you.