You're worrying too much, just relax and have fun! :-)
I understand how you feel. Have you been diagnosed by a clinician? You're clearly having a bad time and your anxiety is looking to be stressing you out. I urge you to have yourself looked at by your doctor and proceed with your treatment plans. Don't overwork yourself and try to relax. After you get assessed by a doctor, your family will take you more seriously and they will understand how you feel.
In my experience having a treatment plan is the most effective way of recovering from mental health conditions. Discipline, determination, and desire to recover a re necessary.
When I was recovering from mental health issues these are my treatment process. Counseling therapy always is a must and medications are also necessary, however I only opt for medications when it's inevitable. I also include some herbal extracts such as kava, chamomile, and lavender tea. Then there is also a nutritional supplement. I find the most effective is endoca hemp products. It has anxiolytic and antidepressant properties. I also include meditation, relaxation exercises, mindfulness programs, and some massages in my treatment plan. You must find the ones that will work for you so that no matter where you are or how you feel you can cope with the conditions you are in.