I don't know if this is so much a question, as I just need to vent how I'm feeling. I'm returning to work tomorrow after being off for 9 months. I lost my job in the first place, due to anxiety. There would be times I would get on the bus to go to work and get off and go back home. Long story short..I've had cancer twice that went misdiagnosed and also had a total thyroidectomy this past December. I didn't always have anxiety. It started about two years ago and came on out of the blue, to the point where I was practically homebound. I take Klonopin and see a therapist and it has helped a great deal. I venture out to all kinds of places now, slowly but surely I am feeling better.
I am so anxious to return to work, but I have no other choice. I need my health coverage, etc and money is tight. I need to get my life back. I will not ever take more than 1mg (total throughout the day) of Klonopin, as I do not want to become dependent on it and also, I have to be very alert on the job. I've tried a million anti-depressants that are to help with anxiety, but I'm very med sensitive and the side effects were unbearable.
If anyone has any positive tips, I would greatly appreciate it! I work in a hospital and cannot just excuse myself for a few minutes if I feel uncomfortable. I need to keep this job. How can I control those "on edge" feelings that I just have to escape..because I can't!! I try the positive thinking, distraction, etc. Anything anyone can add would be so appreciated!