Finally took Lexapro, feeling confused mind blank

[msfuqua]

Well I finally took the Lexapro yesterday afternoon. I noticed that it made me tired and dizzy and also nausea. I yawn a lot more now too, and when I yawn big that's when I feel nausea. I didn't sleep much last night, but since this been going on I hardly ever sleep now. I also noticed a lot of what feels like sinus pressure above my nose. Also some drainage inside. Today I feel funny! I just finished crying cause I feel kinda confused. I'm dizzy a little, feel like my mind is blank, and I feel like I've lost my mind. That what's wrong with me feeling. I'm jittery and I can't think, and can't seem to sit still. I feel like I need to do something, but what that is I don't know. I keep thinking about how she told me that some people try to harm themselves and I'm wondering if that will happen to me. I don't want to do anything of that nature,but you guys I'm so scared, more than ever now. I'm home alone today by myself for a few hours. I'm trying to tell myself that I'm fine and that I can do this and to focus on other things, but I can't stop thinking about why is this happening to me and where is the old me. I had been trying to avoid the computer and looking up stuff, but I had to get on here and write this, cause maybe someone here ease my mind. I don't know what to do. One minute I feel sort of like me and then the next I don't know . This is freaking me out. I don't want to give up.

[msfuqua]

I'm definitely going to journal down some things and let her know How I felt when I left. I went there with an open mind and was definitely honest with her about everything. I'm aware of How addictive Xanax can be which is Why I Only took mine when I felt that it was extremely necessary for me to. I been without for days now and had been doing good without, but today was one of the extreme days for me. I made it thru without it, so I'm definitely Happy about that.

[birdie0907]

You can always get ahead faster by journalizing what you can before going to a therapist. Otherwise you give them so much information that they waste a lot of the session writing it down, and it might not come out as clear verbally as you intend. Write down today's session notes too for her so she knows how you think it is going. It is important to be honest because she is there for recovery, not friendship.
Xanax is addictive and just a temporary solution which might work well if you aren't bothered by the anxiety too often. - my doc says it treats the symptoms instead of the problem - so that is why you are on an ssri to try to get a long term resolution of the issue. My doc also gave me Xanax for temporary relief though because it can be a long journey before you get an ssri to kick in.

[msfuqua]

Thanks for the responses! Today was kinda bad. I went to my first appointment with a counselor and left there in tears. Feeling like she couldn't help me. She asked me questions about my family and said I seem to have a lot of stress. I explained to her everything I was feeling and my thoughts. She just only suggested that I write my feelings down in a journal and come back next week. She came across to me as though she didn't understand Why I was thinking the way that I have been. I told her that I seem to be more anxious now after starting the Lexapro and she said that I shouldn't be feeling that way that it's not supposed to do that. I told her I was out of Xanax and that I just been trying to push thru the anxiety. Her response was that Xanax is only temporary and basically I should push thru it that way I won't get hooked on it. The session only lasted 30mins at the most. I don't know. This was my first time seeing a counselor. I been on the edge all day. Still no appetite and my nausea is not like it was yesterday. I been having more headaches and sinus pressure, but I just take a Tylenol and all is well. Parts of me feel fine and refreshed and then part of me feel anxious. I can be watching tv and then out of no where I start to feel anxious. I'm hanging in there and not giving up,  but it's a struggle!

[remar]

Hopefully it will only be a few more days and you'll be feeling much better.
The above poster gave you great answers.
How are things going today?

[birdie0907]

I yawned for 6 weeks on Celexa but it disappeared afterwards. Your brain is being "temporarily rewired" to some extent (although you still think the same way as before so it is not as if you are drunk, if the med works the "rewiring" blocks the negative impulses like anxiety or depression) so it requires some adjustments before some physical things like yawning go back to normal.

[msfuqua]

Hi there! Thanks for responding. I'm taking Lexapro 10mg.

[remar]

Sorry about that. I meant dose not does.

[remar]

It's not uncommon to have strange side effects when you first start a new med. I felt the same way when I started Lexapro but after a couple of days the side effects got so much better.
What does were you started on? Sometimes it's better to start off small and work your way up.