Hi there, what a vicious cycle anxiety disorder creates. That is where your procrastination comes from... I am chronically late. Being late stresses me out terribly, but my lateness is CAUSED by the stress.
That aside, I think that your current meds might bring you SOME relief, but it doesn't sound like it's the right medication for you. Also, you shouldn't be "upping your dose" on your own. That is why you have a physician! Your doctor will certainly not take your meds away, but rather will work with you to find the RIGHT meds for you AND the right dose. You don't have to live like this... there are many, many options.
Aside from medication, are you seeing a psychologist? Sometimes they can help you find things to motivate you... I would just seek any resource that may be helpful to you and explore those options to the fullest.
Please don't just accept your current situation as "the way it is" and give up, know that you are worth it and should be able to live your life the way you wish... good luck!
Hi;
Wow; It does sound like you're going to have to tell the Dr. Your sx description sounds like 'agoraphobia'. Adding a 'non sedating' antidepressant to Klonopin may help you. If you've built a tolerance to Xanax, it's time to step up to longer acting Klonopin before you find yourself in 'between dose throes' and wanting to eat the stuff like candy.
You'll get it, but need to push yourself to "move". Aka; There's no change w/o change.
I was where you are when I was 32.