Please help me!
I have a major problem with anxiety.
I went clubbing on Saturday night. Got drunk. A slutty tranny came up to me and we ended up ******* on the roof of the club. Basically I ****** him in the *** using a condom.
Now I have called the HIV hotline, posted on HIV forum, and called doctors. ALL TELLING ME THAT I HAD NO RISK!!! (protection = no risk). In total, I have talked to about 15 professionals, and they don't recommend testing and said that if they were in my situation, they would simply move on.
For some freaking reason I can't seem to absorb these facts....I keep telling myself..."what if"
and I can't believe that someone is able to move on in a situation like mine.
Please someone, if you can relate, please shine some light on my crappy situation.
My steps so far are....
1. Staying off this f***ing internet on HIV topics.
2. Occupying myself with something else.
But unfortunately as with all anxiety, it comes back, and it comes back hard!
Am I feeling like this also due to the nature of my incident? Which I believe will leave me scarred for life. I'm having a real hard time believing that I would do something like this and I'm in a world of regret.
Kinda like Pvt. Pyle in Full Metal Jacket...."I AM IN A WORLD OF SH*T"!