Hiv from urine anxiety

[worrywort12]

Suffering from severe anxiety. Obsevilly dwell on what if and keep thinking the worse. My hiv anxiety has come back and it's haunting me. I can't sleep my son got sick and wife started thinking what if I got it and passed it to them. I mean my wife would make since but my son don't but I still in my head keep playing out what if's. My exposure was work related and you can read my post on hiv prevention forum. I have googled and read everything I could and all signs point to not a risk but my mind keeps playing tricks on me and it's to early to test for peace of mind. I really don't know what to do with myself. I worry about everything on a norm and it's hard to deal with I drive my wife nuts.if it's not this it's getting fired if it's not getting fired its something else.i have to meany example of things I worry about but this is my main one right now. But it will change to something else always does plz any advice words of wisdom or something?

[Paxiled]

The question is, what have you done to deal with it?  It won't go away magically, unfortunately.  It sounds like you sabotage yourself quite a bit.  Have you tried therapy yet?  Anything?  You apparently have no HIV problems -- pass it to your son?  So tell us, when do you see your psychologist?  

[worrywort12]

I haven't done anything to deal with it and I plan on calling Dr to get a referral and I did do therapy years ago but nothing since . I don't have any symptoms that I know of .what i meant by pass it to my son was what if he touched my raiser or tooth brush and i did get it from my work exposure which was urine splash to eye from known iv drug user but my son has early stage mono just got call from Dr but it scares me I know it sounds crazy. And I hope I get referral to Dr soon

[AnxiousNoMore]

You were told you can't have HIV but you can't accept it, so your anxiety is a bit of a mental illness and based on your previous posts you have suffered a long time with anxiety.  You need to see a therapist instead of going to chat forums telling your unscientific ideas over and over, and expecting a solution to appear.
You continue to waste your time studying your body trying to work up your science fiction theory that you got HIV. Since you have no medical training and all your theories are unscientific, then it is unrealistic for you to have so much confidence in your own science fiction and unrealistic for you to have zero confidence in the scientists who have studied the 40 year old science of HIV. You need to see a therapist who can make you understand this .
You are wasting your life with your silly made up HIV theories about toothbrushes and urine. You sure can't solve this on your own. You need to go back to therapy, because the fact you only believe your own science fiction theories means no one but a therapist can help you get over that. No one here can provide therapy, so there is no use in constantly stating your theories.