I’m 25 years old , last year I witnessed my boyfriend friend of 7months get killed , from the time my family (except for my two cousins and uncle) found out, they were not very supportive, my mother and auntie called and yelled at me , my mother then asked me “what did you learn from this” to which I replied “ minding your own business can get you killed” (which is not okay). I had family members tell me I shouldn’t go to his funeral and encouraged me to be “over” this situation”.my family didn’t get a chance to meet my boyfriend before he died but before they even met him they made rumors about him and me claiming I spent all my money on him , and that he probably wasn’t ****, to and that i was stupid for being with someone who didn’t have a car. None of these things were true. Fast forward to now , I have a new boyfriend that completely100% knows and cares and understands what happened me was tramatic and he KNOWS I’m STILL healing and i can go talk to him about my boyfriend that died , stays right by me when I’m having anxiety and he’s constantly asking me about how I feel and my anxiety, I can be myself around him , always tries to keep a smile on my face! But my family are now starting the same rumors about him and now they claim they are concerned about my mental health because they feel like I’m over extending myself to him because I give him rides to work , my anxiety has been a joke to them I’ve heard things like “ you can’t use your anxiety as an excuse “ “ she doesn’t really have anxiety that bad she’ll get over it” and it just feels like they only want to talk about my anxiety when they want to , can’t go to my mother my aunties or my grandmother to talk about my deceased boyfriend and my feelings about everything because they get caught up in their own feelings about the situation, I can not heal in this environment,I’ve been called a hoe, a their, a lesbian and stupid by my family , I’m becoming so unhappy living with family that I isolate myself around from them, My family stresses me out more then my current boyfriend, I was staying with him but they had a problem with that I came back after he lost his apartment and my mental state is not great right now,?im freaking out because I don’t even want to be around them for thanksgiving, my boyfriend keeps tell me I’m lucky to have them and I am , I love them but they just aren’t good for my health so, if I talk to my therapist about this does any one think that I may be able to get some sort of help to move away from it all? I have two jobs and I’m willing to pay rent but I’m just lost on where to start , I live in Los Angeles , if anyone knows a way I can get help PLEASE comment on this post I want to live alone before I have to check myself into a treatment center!