I am 21 years old with two children ages 15 months and 8 weeks.
I had my first ever panic attack about 3 years ago after smoking some marijuna which is something that I did regularly since I was 14 and since having the panic attack have not touched a narcotic.
The experience that I had was so frightening that for an entire 3 months i could barely function. I would have panic attacks regularly and would be scared to go anywhere or do anything in fear I would have another. After about 3 months I felt normal again and went on living life. Since then I have had very few small panic attacks and can usually talk myself through them quickly..
recently about the last week or so my anxiety has been so high and although I know there is great reason to explain the anxiety it literally came out of no where on day. I was sitting at a friends house with my kids talking about all the things that I have to get done, all the deadlines that I have and boom panic attack.. since then I have had such a hard time. I got sick with the flu the very next day after this attack and then came down with a sinus and ear infection from the flu which has caused me to have vertigo and has only made my anxiety worse. The constant not feeling like I am in reality is driving me insane.. All i want to do is feel like i did 2 weeks ago.. NORMAL.
I know that stress can only build so much until the body gives out and that is what I feel like happened to me but I am not sure what to do.. I dont want to be put on medication because I know that this will not last forever and I know that meds should be a last resort.. I fear so many things all the time even worse after having my kids, about my health, and with the anxiety I wont touch any medication of any kind unless I have to in fear of it altering my mind... that fear goes back to the marijuana incident which i know..
I just want to know if anyone out there can relate to me..
I do have forms of hypocondria and hate it.. got that from my mother growing up, and I know that adds alot of harship for me... but to know i am not alone in and of itself at this point would be so comforting..
Thank you in advance