I'm sorry you're struggling so much, especially just having a new precious baby girl :( I think you should talk to your Dr and make sure it's not PPD on top of whatever else you're struggling with, Panic attacks, etc. Please let your Dr in on whats going on, especially if you're having irrational thoughts. Congratulations on your baby girl, this is such a special time in your life get help so you can enjoy it to the fullest. You're so blessed, I wish my kids were babies again, it goes by so fast. Wish you the best in life. <3
Are you seeing a psychologist who specializes in anxiety therapy? If not, why not? You say you have OCD -- do you, or are you self-diagnosing? And what supplements are you referring to?
Please, is anybody there ?