Hello all, this is my first post. I am a 21 year old male in desperate need of help. I feel completely lost and have no idea where to turn. I've always been an anxious person growing up but it was ruled out as "growing pains". I had a severe accident when I was very young and became very ill in middle school and those are the two things that I believe gave me this anxiety disorder. I am now a college junior and after years of dealing with it I decided to get help. What makes me get help now? Well first off I am a very head strong, athletic, leader type of person - for me to even admit that I have anxiety would be a total suprise to many people, including my parents. However, for the first two years of college I went to a university that was close to my home, so I currently reside at my parents residence. Now it is time to move on, and transfer to a new location which means new friends, finally living off on my own, and more difficult school work. I realize that some anxiety is normal especially when encountering new things, but it is starting to get beyond what I am comfortable dealing with. I decided to make an appointment with my doctor who has know me my entire life, my pediatrician. I trust him and under my current insurance policy I am able to see him until I turn 22, so thats who I currently see. I went in and spoke to him and he let me in on the secret that hes know ive been anxious my entire life, even when I was younger. He referred me to a psychiatrist, and I was on my way. I made an appt with the psych (which I had to wait a month for) and finally went to him yesterday. He did not help at all. He asked me very general questions and kept looking at my tattoos. I understand that people are quick to judge, however my tattoos are done by one of the best artists in the country and are pure works of art, not trash. To shorten this story I feel like he took one look at me and decided that there was no way in hell he is going to even consider giving me a benzo. I realize that I am not a doctor, but am very educated on drugs, nutrition, and exercise. I live a very healthy lifestyle which includes healthy diets, a gym routine 5x a week, and rarely consumes alcohol and never uses receational drugs. He walked out of the room and handed me cymbalta, the depression medication. I told him more than 3 times that I am NOT depressed and that I've had BAD past experiences with depression medication and that I really do not want to take such a drug. Without saying it, his answer to me was basically "take it or leave it". I walked out mad at the world. I spoke to my parents who are both concerned about me now that I have told them how I felt and they want me to call his office back and tell him that I'd like to try blank drug. I told them I was uncomfortable doing this being that it seems like I am just trying to get these drugs to support a habit or addiction, but they still think I should anyway. After lots of research it seems like the best two drugs for my situation would be valium or klonopins, however, I still cant narrow down which one is better for me. As of now, Valium seems to be the best drug for my case, as I DO get panic attacks but I am able to manage them, and they are often rare. The psych did tell me I had GAD, which I know I do. If you were to ask me how I feel during the day I just cant relax, I feel on edge constantly, I cant take a nap even if exhausted, I cant fall asleep at night, I always feel as if I have something to take care of, somewhere I'm late to, or even sometimes worry of money & education - however, I am perfectly happy! My life is great, I live in a nice family, I have great relationships with friends, family, and girls, etc etc etc. There is no need for me to be on a anti-depressant in my opinion an d coupled with my past exp. of the drugs I REFUSE to take one. What do you as a community suggest? I am moving into my new location in 15 days exactly, and I need my anxiety under control - atleast until I become settled. Thank you for any input everyone.