I feel like i am not real.

[layden]

About two years ago i was told i had anxiety and depression and panic disorder. I was 15 years old at the time.. I am now 17 and although i have tried lexapro and Prozac. Nothing has worked for me. I can't think that anxiety is what i really have. I feel as though everything is either a dream or a vision. Like it is not really there. It is so bad i scream and cry at night sometimes. I am also always dizzy and lightheaded. And This is always. Then sometimes i get hot flashes and cold flashes and i see things as if they are cartoon kind of. Though i have had tried many meds. I can't seem to figure out what is going on. The past 6 months i have also been EXTREMELY irritable and i am just very angry at everything. I can't seem to remember things, and that makes me even more angry. I want to go out and be "normal" But i don't know how. Please help me!  

[knesmith07]

I'm sitting here reading your post and reminiscing on when I use to feel that EXACT same way. Its been about 2 years now since I've experienced these symptoms but it feels like yesterday because Anxiety is something that I would never forget. Like you, I would turn to this forum for help, answers, advice...anything to help me get on with my day---and I have to tell you, talking and chatting with others who understood and who shared their similar stories-was the first step to my recovery. With that said, you're definitely on the right road already... like Tinkerbaby101 mentioned above,  the unreal feeling you're experiencing is called Depersonalization. It's such a nasty feeling--I remember feeling like I was in space all the time...trapped in my own little world and even though family and friends were directly in front of me...they seemed very far away. Like you, I was dizzy, always  feeling faint and my heart rate stayed on full speed-even during little or no activity on my part. I cried almost every night and forget about it...I lived in the Emergency Room. Scan after scan---blood test after blood test (all negative). I want you to know that you are not alone, you are not going crazy (dnt let anyone ever tell you that)...Anxiety is real and it's scary but the secret to my full recovery (with NO MEDS) was breaking that cycle of fear. I forced myself everyday for 2 years to stop being afraid of these symptoms-that i was healthy-that I wanted to live normal again....and I tell you no like...slowly...little by little the symptoms started to dissappear. Today, I look at myself and cant believe I'm here...well and Anxiety free...I thought that it would never end-but it did..and I got through it and so can you. I hope I brought you and others who reads my post a since of hope--and please feel free to contact me anytime if you need to. ***@**** :)

[Tinkerbaby101]

What you are experiencing is called depersonalization. I had it as a child(now 39) and my daughter who is 9 has been diagnosed with it as well. It is all apart of having the anxiety/depression/bi polar is what the psychiatrist told us. My daughter have been on several different medications until we found what worked for us. I take prozac which works great for me but not others. I don't know if you have help from your parents or anyone else but I think you need to go see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. These symtoms are nothing to mess with, and once you do get on some meds, make sure you take your dosage at the same time everyday and don't skip! Hope I have helped you and if I can answer any more questions for you I would me more than happy to help

[rls27]

Have you been in therapy at all? Who prescribed your meds? If you aren't already seeing a therapist I would recommend you get in to see one. They can help you sort things out and develop a plan to cope and determine if you might need a different med or dosage.