I have depersonalisation.i don’t know how to cope anymore

[ari_822]

I’ve had it since last year, about  maybe may . it just kept getting worse, at that time I wouldn’t worry about it, but I’d think what would I do if things really got bad and didn’t go away. it has, its gotten really bad. I don’t even have regular emotions when I’m by myself or alone, it’s just numb. I can’t even bring myself to feel sad or scared. the feeling just never comes over me . im pretty young and nobody really has problems like this at my age. the worst thing is the loneliness, it’s so lonely and no one understands if they’ve never been through it, like my best friend. im forgetting myself, I don’t even know who I am anymore. and I don’t know what to do

[Paxiled]

You don't say how old you are, and lots of people of all ages feel all sorts of things.  It is unlikely, though, for most of us that we know someone well who has the same problems we do.  Depersonalization is a symptom, not a disorder by itself.  You sound like someone who is depressed or very sad or traumatized by something.  You don't say what's going on in your life or if you've spoken to anyone who might be able to help, such as your parents or a therapist or your doctor.  What's actually going on and what if anything have you done about it?

[ari_822]

I’m not really comfortsble with saying my age, so I’m just gonna say I’m under fifteen. i don’t know what to do. I’m seem normal around other people, and I can’t bring myself to tell anyone close because I’m scared of ruining my relationship with them. I told my best friend, she said Just go to the school counseler and I would say really didn’t understand at all. I probably am being stupid not actually doing anything to help myself. is as if I do not care and I cannot actually realise my emotions by myself. only after after you said I sound sad or depressed i really realised what I was feeling. im either actually dreaming or things are real and there’s something really ******* wrong with me.

[Paxiled]

Why didn't you go see that counselor?  That was good advice from your most trusted human.  I'm guessing you're self-diagnosing, which means you really haven't a clue as to what's going on.  You're so young that you're going to be going through a lot of stuff in the next few years that will come and go if you were the healthiest person in the world, so that's why I asked your age.  Your hormones are going nuts, life is fast, change is constant at that age and there are great ups and great downs.  To know if you have a problem or just a blip in your life you need to talk to someone who has more expertise than you do.  And again, do you have parents?  Part of their job is to help you get to adulthood healthy.  Use them.