Aa
I'm going crazy
I scared in a sociopath or psychopath. My family always jokes about me being one or the other. I hate social situations and fake illness or lie to get of them. I have barely any friends, and I don't care about the few I have. Having no friends doesn't bother me. I love being alone. I constantly lie to my family. I constantly say small little lies. Sometimes I don't even notice I'm lying til after words. I change my face expressions or mood infront of my family to get the desire effect I want. I am not nice to people. I never mean sorry when I say it. It's just something I throw around when someone's feelings are hurt. My parents have threatened me with public humiliation trying to get me to say sorry. My is constantly mad at me saying I make her fell bad and I genuinely don't care. I feel always feel anxious. I know I have wrong behavior but I the same time I'm not stopping it.
Don't feel bad. You described me as a teen to a tee just now. I found that alot of my behavior and issues were the result of my mother and through counseling i realized this. It was due to the fact that while i was a child my mother basiclly just ignored me as an emotional person. dont get me wrong she fed and clothed me but that was about it. I too suggest that you try therapy possibly at the department for families and children. They will let you have therapy for free due to the fact that youre under 18. It may not be you who is the problem. just remeber to stay strong and that you are who you are and theres no reason for you to change that to please others.
You don't need money to seek help -- if your parents are genuinely too poor to take you to a psychologist there are programs to help. That is, if you really do want help. As for being a psychopath or sociopath, if you were you probably wouldn't be feeling bad enough about it to post on here seeking help. I'd listen to the above post and work to get yourself the help you need before you fall into a chronic way of living that makes you unhappy.
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Paxiled presented a fantastic short form summary of the issues and approaches to take, so I hope AlphaTwin is able to make use of it..
Hi there. Gosh, I'm sorry first of all. Really, truly, I'm sure you are much better than you think and it is unfortunate your family isn't kind and supportive about any troubles you do have.
Perhaps you have social anxiety. Avoidance and barriers are key signs of this in terms of interacting with other people. My son has a lot of anxiety and social anxiety and I've dealt with a little of it myself. I want you to know that you can overcome that. Social anxiety can be treated with CBT (a form of behavioral therapy) and/or medication. Things like you see people you know and instead of feeling glad to have the opportunity to say hi, you hide from them and feel dread. That's a sign of social anxiety. it's not uncommon either hon, you are NOT alone if this is going on.
And perhaps the lying and being unkind are defensive mechanisms. Perhaps the being unkind is learned too as your parents threaten you with public humiliation--- that's cruel. The inner core of someone who is socially anxious is public humiliation, lack of confidence and shame. So, their strategy is not helpful and I'm sure backfires and makes you MORE anxious.
Now, I'm not sure how old you are. Is seeing a psychologist a possibility? I think it would REALLY help. If your parents want you to 'change'--- they can then perhaps be persuaded to seek this kind of help for you. We are ALL and I mean ALL a work in progress. You are able to work on yourself-- things you don't like can be moved along the continuum until it gets better and better (baby steps). And IF it turns out to be a psychological disorder as questioned in the title of your post, that is something a psychiatrist/psychologist can also work on and help you with. Those things are your brains make up--- not someone's fault. But it takes professional help to work on it. :>)
So, how does this sound? Would you be willing to see a psychologist/psychiatrist for help? (also an alley when your parents have not been).
Perhaps you have social anxiety. Avoidance and barriers are key signs of this in terms of interacting with other people. My son has a lot of anxiety and social anxiety and I've dealt with a little of it myself. I want you to know that you can overcome that. Social anxiety can be treated with CBT (a form of behavioral therapy) and/or medication. Things like you see people you know and instead of feeling glad to have the opportunity to say hi, you hide from them and feel dread. That's a sign of social anxiety. it's not uncommon either hon, you are NOT alone if this is going on.
And perhaps the lying and being unkind are defensive mechanisms. Perhaps the being unkind is learned too as your parents threaten you with public humiliation--- that's cruel. The inner core of someone who is socially anxious is public humiliation, lack of confidence and shame. So, their strategy is not helpful and I'm sure backfires and makes you MORE anxious.
Now, I'm not sure how old you are. Is seeing a psychologist a possibility? I think it would REALLY help. If your parents want you to 'change'--- they can then perhaps be persuaded to seek this kind of help for you. We are ALL and I mean ALL a work in progress. You are able to work on yourself-- things you don't like can be moved along the continuum until it gets better and better (baby steps). And IF it turns out to be a psychological disorder as questioned in the title of your post, that is something a psychiatrist/psychologist can also work on and help you with. Those things are your brains make up--- not someone's fault. But it takes professional help to work on it. :>)
So, how does this sound? Would you be willing to see a psychologist/psychiatrist for help? (also an alley when your parents have not been).
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Im 15, my parents don't have money or the care to take me to a doctor. Thanks for the answer though
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