I'm just so tired of this anxiety

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I'm not even thinking about it and I try to keep myself busy and I get anxiety attacks.  I'm just so tired of living like this.  I cry all the time because of this.  My boyfriend probably thinks I'm crazy.  He is very supportive and helpful with me when I have these panic attacks I just feel bad when it happens.  Like everything has to stop because of me.  I wish there was a way for all of us to not have anxiety.  Is there any type of brain surgery that could be done to make this go away for good?

cobainsdomain · Answer

I just recently began really suffering from anxiety i'd say about 6 or so months ago, around thanksgiving 08'.  I don't know whether it's genetic, hormonal, mental whatever.  I don't blame god nor believe he's going to "save me" from this disorder of sorts.  I have been depressed for the better part of my life.  Infact there are few memories i have where i haven't been.  Just as i start to finally get a grip on that problem, i begin to get these dibilitating attacks that feel like i'm having a heart attack.  Stabbing pains, loss of breathe, and almost loss of conciousness.  The E.R. didn't help, my doctor didn't help, and i live with this pain everyday.  I honestly feel as though im facing death every single damn day.  Medicine helps to supress it a bit, but doesn't cure it.

I know what it feels like to really be in a circumstance that you wish there was a simple way out of, but truth of the matter is theres not.  The funny thing is though, regardless of this i continue to live my life and still have many happy moments that make all these bad ones to just be forgotten for a bit.  Life goes on, and you will go on.  You will still enjoy life eventually once you find your personalized way to overcome this.  There is no better help for suffering than looking inward to yourself.  To the strength you were born with.  Pushed far enough anyone snaps, so pushed far enough anyone can push past.  Talking to a psychologist helped me greatly, just being able to clear my head and vent was amazingly helpful on its own.  I still live with pain, still search for an answer.

But i won't let a little anxiety ruin what i plan to be a happy life.  I dont know if this helped at all, but i guess my main point is always be strong, always try to be optimistic, and just simply disect your situation and symptoms to come up with an answer.

Anz428 · Answer

we should all start a chat room on this... :-)  I'm the same way on wanting to be a lone when I get anxiety attacks.  I get anxious too when I am around other people.  It's not fun.  Is lexapro an anti-anxiety medicine?

EroToo · Answer

I have that breathing thing as well.....Was under control for so many years and then I got on the right meds and it went away.  A couple of weeks ago, something triggered them off again.  I can't take a deep breath, I don't feel like I am getting enough oxgyen and I also have trouble yawning.  I went to the ER during a major panic attack and they did an EKG and chest X-rays and I am healthy (not mentally, obviously).  If you want to exchange mails, mine is ***@****.  We can try to talk each other out of the panic attack.  I would even be willing to give you my phone number or exchange numbers so we can panic together.  I forgot what meds you are on.  I was taking Prozac and Klonopin for years and was switched about a week ago to Zoloft and Valium.   I thought I was over this fear and here it is again.
KAREN

RNJLo · Answer

I know how you feel.  I was in Costco last weekend and suddenly had an anxiety attack.  I had to go the the employee breakroom and lie down.  Luckily, my husband was with me and he drove me home.  It comes on at the strangest times, and It makes me afraid to go anywhere.  I am constantly afraid I will have an attack and pass out.  YOu are not alone.  I hope we can get over this!

gmichael66 · Answer

God, I wish I was dead sometimes.
Im 42 , male, single and up until 2/8 I was the happiest guy on Earth, great job, good friends, great family, hobbies, interests, hopes dreams, great memories......

Now, I dont want to wake up anymore. I just cant breathe right, I can not get that deep breath on a regular basis, and now, about a week now, I can teven yawn properly. 

I have no other symptoms, I have no other thoughts, or fears. I just cant cope wit this thinking how great my life was and how it is now fallen so far so fast. I cry and cry and sleep and cry and seep and cry, pray, go to work, cry and cry......

Geoffrey

whoitsme · Answer

I use to suffer from anxiety very bad, but i think theres always somthing or somebody who you have to trust. Il give you a very simple example of how you can get over this, talk to jesus, i believe in him and im sure he wil help you

Lady_V · Answer

I also have anxiety and panic attacks...and i HATE it. I try so hard not to think about them and keep my mind busy. I work all day and have 4 kids so i am busy, but my anxiety still comes. I get this weird, butterfly feeling that starts in my own body. When i feel that i know that something is going on, and i try my best to think of something else. I notice that when i do feel anxiety i want to be alone. At night i will make my self go to sleep, but I cant do this during the day.....I am on medication, Lexapro and thyroid med for hypo thryoidism and they just gave me Wellbuerton??? But i hate meds! I feel like i just wish i didnt have to take medication you know?? I feel stupid when i am with other people (anywhere) and i start feeling my anxiety coming on. I dont think anyone understands that this is something that i cant control.

Anz428 · Answer

Hey thanks.  I'll look in to it. They will help me with my anxiety attacks right?  I'm just tired of feeling like **** all the time.

girlwithnolife · Answer

Hi yes I go to psychiatrist and therapist. The only thing that helped me was meds as mine is genetic but therapy does work for some people. you really should go as they can help you. Call your local health dept. if you don't have insurance. They can help you.

Anz428 · Answer

Thanks for the comments.  Does anyone go to psychiatrist/therapy and does it help?  Still don't know what to do...wish this would go away.

girlwithnolife · Answer

Hi Yes I think it is ok to come here and to anz yes that sounds like panic to me. It causes horrible symptoms. That's one of the things I hate about it. You don't know whether it's panic or something "real". I have decided over the years that I won't go to hospital unless I collapse and some 1 calls them. LOL And I hate if because I think people think I'm a hypochondriac but the feelings are still there so it's like you are really sick but nobody really understands. Oh well just wanted to vent. If any 1 ever figures out a way to relax let me know.

EroToo · Answer

Does anyone try to constantly try to take a deep breath because you don't feel like your getting enough air.  I feel like I have emphysema when I have an attack.  That 'full' deep breath just won't come and until does, I am so scared and breathless!!!

crackedglass · Answer

Yes, we are survivors, aren't we? I have managed to stumble through 57 years, most of it with my mind swirling and my heart racing. I almost had to have heart surgery until a cardiologist realized I had an unbalanced thryoid. There's a term for it, Hashimoto's Disease, a thyroid that doesn't balance, or gets balanced just for a few months then goes out of whack again. Is it alright that I come here since my anxiety is hormonally based? I dont' want to be where I don't belong.

girlwithnolife · Answer

Hi, I have had anxiety and panic disorder since I was 6. I am now 50. I know and have had all the symptoms you all are talking about. I definitely know how you feel. It stinks. But I don't believe that talk therapy behavior modification ect. works for everybody. Mine is genetic and I have tried it all. The only thing that has helped is Paxil CR for the panic attacks but when I started going through menopause it's been way worse. Panic attacks are still infrequent but anxiety is through the roof. I did have a panic attack yesterday and man I shook and felt like I was gonna pass out for awhile. Then I just sat and cried. I think different things work for different people but I haven't found anything that helped me but meds. I have been going to a therapist and a psychiatrist for years. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone and you will not have to be institutionalized. It's no fun but we do survive. Take care and I am here if any 1 wants to talk.

EroToo · Answer

My mind races and I constantly wait for the next attack these days.

Anz428 · Answer

I do drink a good amount of water a day.  Does anyones mind race?  I just feel like I have to keep going all the time to keep my mind occupied, and if I don't it happens. Anyone else get this way?

jakegorzen · Answer

My theroy behind 99% of mental disorders, is that there ALL CAUSED by PHYSCIAL PROBLEMS!

Mainly parasitic infections, my main reasoning behind that is because Parasites are one of the hardest things to find/diagnose.

Around Europe, real scientist are linking skitso. to the Parasite toxoplamosis.

If you observe the symptoms here on the anxiety forum, they all kinda mesh together and "Roll" in sequence.
Make a list from what you read here of symptoms.....then go find a parasite forum..or Lyme disease forum, you'll be amazed.

Hensley
"THEY" already know what it is.."THEY" dont want YOU to know because they can keep you alive..but suffering at the same time so "THEY" can have a LIFETIME CUSTOMER.
Science does have a clue of what it is, but THE FDA is greedy, and 99% of us Americans "Me and a few others being the 1%" trust to much in a health care controlled by greed.
Isnt it funny what the FDA passes and what it doesnt?
isnt it funny how physc meds are the #1 prescribed med?
Isnt it funny how the main active ingredient in antidepressants is fluoride, proven to lower IQ and "Dumb you down"?
Isnt it funny how the same active ingredient fluoride has been shown to inhibit parasitic growth?

The FDA and Goverment dont like it when you ask questions...because when you do.....you see allot of deceptions and obvious answers
And where theres answers.....theres no money, because they need there lifetime customers.

Hensley258 · Answer

I know how you feel. I get so pissed off that here it is 2009 and science has still no clue at all about effective treatments for anxiety dissorder.

I am so scared all the time of what will become of me, as my condition gets worse with every passing year. Where does it end? With my death?

If it get's much worse I may not be able to work anylonger and that means having to beg on the streets for money like so many poor souls I see every day.

I also fear that I will simple become institutonalized for life and forgotten about.

I hate this damn dissorder so much I could spit nails. I keep asking WHY ME! what did I do to deserve this? I have lived a clean and honest life. Why not give this dam condition to a person that is evil at heart.

God is not always fair.

WayofLife · Answer

Yeah, I think drinking lots of water is key. I can actually trigger anxiety just by not drinking enough water. Regular walks are good. I think it is better to think about it as something that will probably not go away altogether, but will be manageable for most of your life.

cj29 · Answer

I am sorry that you are dealing with anxiety right now. Quite often it is scary, confusing, physically and emotionally draining but you can and will beat this.  When I went through this, I was actually afraid to leave the house for fear of a panic attack.  I became reclusive, lost my self identity and became severely depressed.  

I don't think you need brain surgery; in my opinion you need to accept and confront it through talk therapy.  In my experience with this, gaining the knowledge about it, gave me the tools to not only beat it, but thrive with it.  I believe this whole experience has made me a more well rounded person and I learned a lot because of this experience, although that was the furthest thing from my mind when I went through this.  

Remember, we all have our challenges and the good thing is that you do not go through this alone.  There are so many people that have been in your shoes (me included) that have been through this...the good thing is there is an end to this through hard work and knowledge....please feel free to share your experiences and questions with us!