I'm too scared to get diagnosed?

[lehhh]

Hi. For about a month now I've been experiencing a dream-like feeling on and off which I've found out is called derealisation. I was already worried there might be something physically wrong with me, and just last week while we were studying Euthanasia in class I guess it kind of got to me and my heart started racing, I felt physically sick, I couldn't concentrate on anything except the thought that I'm very, very ill and likely going to die, my hands were shaking so bad my friends noticed, I felt dizzy, as if I might pass out and again I had the feeling of derealisation. Ever since then I've been so terrified that I might be terminally ill or something like that that I can't really function like normal. I go through periods where I'm fine, laughing and talking and doing normal things and then times when I want to run off and cry, or I just put my head down on my desk and start sobbing from fear. I feel like I'm losing touch with myself and I'm either worried that I'm dying or that I'll never get rid of these symptoms. Randomly, my heart races for a few seconds at a time, I feel derealisation very often and I'm in almost constant fear. I want to tell my parents but I'm afraid I'll start crying if I do, and I want to see a doctor to see if I have anxiety, but I'm even more afraid of getting diagnosed and finding out that I am physically sick. I feel nauseous just typing this. I don't know what to do. I just don't feel like myself at all.

[AnxiousNoMore]

If you want help you will have to ask for it from a professional. Keeping it all inside just makes each day the same as the last.

[lehhh]

That's true. I'll just have to work up the nerve to do so, I suppose. Thank you!

[WillWho]

OK, take a deep breath. Open a note app on your phone and document these episodes for a week or three. Also, Google is great for differential diagnosis, but if you were to keep looking, you will find 20 other ailments with essentially the same symptoms. When everything is quiet, do you hear any ringing or buzzing that you believed was normal? The symptom you described along with the ringing/buzzing could be something else. Keep that diary and see just how often this happens.

Then, rather than get emotional, send Mom an email before you leave for school. Ask her to make an apointment with your doctor, and go from there. :)

In the meantime - get that homework finished! :P