We're not permitted (for good reason) to give specific tapering instructions. I agree that your initial taper was too fast. At that point, did you talk to your doc about your concerns, or did you just adjust the dose yourself and go from there?
With these kinds of meds, a slow and deliberate taper is best, and even with the best taper, it is normal to experience a good bit of rebound anxiety that no doubt isn't too pleasant.
You REALLY should be doing this under the guidance of a doctor who knows his way around these kinds of meds. Can you seek a second opinion? That would be my recommendation. Taking this into your own hands is just not a good idea, especially since you're already struggling to adhere to even YOUR OWN guidelines. It's also really better to tackle one taper at a time. Doing both together probably only added insult to injury I'm afraid.
I would try to find a new doctor. Please let us know how you're doing...so sorry you're having such a rough time...best of luck!
Hey Shapirot, I really feel for you and what you're going through, this certainly isn't fun for anyone. Even our doctors don't really understand what we are going through. Having said that, I agree with Dave, see if you can find a new doctor. There are some very knowledgeable doctors out there and they can help you. :)
Thanks for your advice...I am very confused about this...I have so many symptoms...I'm terrified of benzo-induced brain damage that might take years to heal...
I'm amazed how little doctor's know about getthese meds, and what happens to them when they reach tolerance and go into withdrawals (even while taking a stable dose); and at how liberally these meds are prescribed...even for long term use!
Even supposed DETOX centers don't work for this dependency because of the complex nature of the addiction and the time to recover.
The Ashton Manual sheds a lot of light on the subjuct, but all their tapers involve crossing over to valium...I'm not sure if I want that.
Pushing on to get off these drugs.
Please be careful not to scare yourself too much. While there are absolutely some terrible horror stories out there, for the average person, even if they have a difficult taper, don't suffer with any long-term, lasting side effects.
The Valium cross over method is more commonly used, in my experience, with the more difficult cases, where there may be unusually high benzo doses, more than one benzo being used concurrently (with cross tolerance issues), and significantly long lengths of treatment. I think you could pull this off, as long as the taper is managed well....with a slow and deliberate approach. A lot of times, even if a taper is progressing well, and the drop downs in dosage are taken slowly, there won't be enough time allowed in between dosage reductions. It's optimal to allow a patient to stabilize a bit on each new dose, before dropping down lower. If all of those factors are incorporated into a taper...gradual drop down with increments that are acceptable, with a a stabilization period, it can be very doable, with minimal discomfort. Not to say it will be flawless, but manageable.
A lot of people too confuse the rebound anxiety with withdrawal symptoms, and worry that that is an indication of long term effects or brain damage. Rebound anxiety is just an unfortunate reality, even with the most perfect taper, as obviously, taking the benzo out of the equation will increase anxiety levels. Even with tolerance and dependency, the benzos are still obviously helping to minimize anxiety while you're on it.
You are very smart to be educating yourself, just be cautious, like I said, of scaring yourself, with the horror stories. I have learned through the years, that honestly, most of the people with the TRUE horror stories that involve long-term effects almost always involve a situation where a person stopped the med abruptly, without any taper.
I sincerely hope you can manage to find a good doctor who can help you navigate through this. Please keep us updated!!
Thank you very much for your kind and informative reply. Yes, I have attempted to educate myself on my condition.
I have found and studied the "Ashton Manual (benzodiazepines: how they work and how to withdraw)" which appears to be the unofficial go-to reference for benzo withdrawal.
There are several models of withdrawal from various benzos at differing dosages and durations, and the very general indication of not to exceed a 5% reduction per week, or a 10% reduction in two weeks.
Personally, I am doing a linear taper on my klonopin by reducing the dose .0625mg every12-14 days. .0625 is only 4.2% of my starting dose of 1.5mg after the iatrogenic cold turkey cut from 2.0mg upon tolerance diagnosis. I anticipate my taper to take nearly a year.
I feel the horrendous cuts to my dose from my doctor in response to my tolerance diagnosis set the stage for a shaky foundation for this taper so I am going extra slow. His cuts caused basically a net cold turkey cut from 2mg - 1.5mg and I know I will have to pay for that sooner or later.
I am currently on my third cut...dosing klonopin at 1.3125mg.
The halcion? I cut it .0625 down to .4375 for vanitie's sake. I don't know what to do with it.
I know they're both high potency benzos, but the halcion has only a 2 hour half life. The Ashton Manual indicates it is permissible to stop halcion abruptly because of this...but I don't know.
Anyway, thanks for your help and guidance...your words reflect a caring nature.
Thank you for your informative and helpful words. Consistent with my benzodiazepine tolerance, depency, and withdrawals; I was wondering if you would know of any pertinent resources out there regarding the reregulation or upregulating of benzo-affected GABA receptors in the brain after the removal of benzodiazepines.
Naturally, with my symptoms, I am concerned to know anything about the normalizing of my GABA receptor functions.
My symptoms (generally, they morph in and out):
Tired, achy, DULL brain
internittant sharp pain through forehead
inability to think coherently
irritability, anxiety, depression
"I feel DULL, tired, and stupid...reminiscent of Down Syndrome"
So, I'm very anxious for my GABA receptors to function normally again.
I would appreciate the benefit of your experience in this matter. Thank you.