Hello so I will try to make this question as short as possible. A few months back I started going through a very stressful time. I ended up having constant anxiety, panic and worry 24/7. I worry about everything lately. It got to a point were I was not sleeping, I was scared to be alone, and at night I was scared there was something in my house (long story also). I had a mental breakdown and didn't know what to do with my life anymore and went to the doctor. My doctor ended up prescribing me Klonopin 0.5mg as needed to help me sleep. I took only half or so when needed once in a while. Things got worse over time and beginning in September I started Lexapro while taking the Klonopin every day at night (0.125-0.25mg or 1/4-1/2 of 0.5mg) for side effects. As time went on I didn't Improve. I had previously been on Zoloft a few years back and had success on it so I wanted to go back to it hoping that it would work the way it once did. I switched directly from Lexapro to Zoloft on Oct. 6th (today is Day 13). Things have been extremely rough to say the least. Every side effect imaginable has happened to me. Lately the days are rough and the evenings are ok. Yesterday and today have been decent days but the anxiety is still there. What is really making me anxious is two things and these are my PRIMARY QUESTIONS which ill post under this! I have been taking Klonopin for about 2 POSSIBLY 3 months at most in the evening to help relax me to go to bed. I was taking 1/4 of a 0.5mg pill on some nights and some nights 0.25 (half of the 0.5mg pill). I think maybe at most I have taken the actual full 0.5mg a total of 3 times in 3 months. Last week getting on the Zoloft was so hard I was anxious every minute of everyday until the evening. Hence why the past two nights I have been taking 0.25mg. I seem to be doing better, but I am not sure if it is the Zoloft working or the Klonopin taking away the side effects. I really REALLY want to get off the Klonopin but I am scaered that I am going to go through nasty withdrawls, increase in anxiety, seizures etc. I have read HORROR STORIES. I need to be off this drug. I am in therapy now and am going tomorrow. He says to take it that I should not be addicted and it will help, but I feel as I am physically dependant and am scared not to take it. I just want to know when the Zoloft is working and if the Klonopin is masking the side effects or if I AM causing all of my anxiety. It has been getting rough. I am just looking for advice until I see my PDOC next Tuesday and my Psychologist tomorrow. PLEASE anything would help right now. Reassurance and all. MY MAIN QUESTIONS:
1.) Will I have any crazy withdraws from taking the amount I have been taking for 2-3ish months ranging from (0.125-0.25mg and RARELY 0.5mg)?
2.) Will Zoloft help the withdrawl effects of the Klonopin or make it worse (Tomorrow will be two weeks since starting Zoloft and am at 50mg)
3.) Can Last weeks (and these past days) anxiety be due to Klonopin tolerance along with Zoloft start up effects or am I causing it upon myself?
4.) Can feeling almost normal at times and days, then days of horror mean the Zoloft is working?
5.) Lastly, I wonder if I was to stop all medication and try to succeed with just therapy would it be successful as I was off Zoloft for 1 year or so until things got a little out of hand?
My main problem is anxiety ! Constantly I am always worrying about something and googling symptoms its like I have become obsessed. I have a little depression but not too crazy. PLEASE IM LOOKING FOR THE HELP I CAN GET. I APPRECIATE EVERYTHING. THANK YOU!