Starting any new medication can be nerve racking. What I would do is think about the the way your life is and the way it is going. Then think about how this pill might change all of that. I think that if your symptoms are this debilitating anything is worth a try.
I've been on Lexapro for a month now for anxiety over health issues. It's the first time I've taken any sort of anti depressants. I won't lie, the first week or so *****. I had a few bad headaches, lack of energy, nausea, increased anxiety, and lightheadedness. Now that I'm a month in I can say my anxiety is definitely decreased. I have good days, really good days, and maybe an okay day, then a bad day. Has it helped my anxiety? Totally. Has it completely changed my life? Not really, not yet anyways. It's really up to you to make the decision on if you think it will benefit you or not. Weigh the pros and cons of each option. Each person reacts differently to these kind of pills so if your heart says to give it a shot go for it. Just don't expect instant results/effects as I'm sure you know!
Always be absolutely definite before you ever break a tablet, in order to take a smaller dosage, that the medicine isn't a time released type. For instance OxyContin. If you take a broken time-release tablet, it could kill you. Instead of getting half the dose you would be taking a huge amount because taking half of a twelve hour tablet that is supposed to be released into your system a small amount over the twelve hours. If you break and take one half of it, you will get a dose suddenly into your blood that will be large enough to kill you. I'm using as an example here of a 40mg of OxyContin
Look up magnesium, get a high absorbance brand. And maybe a vitumin B complex. Sounds simple I know but it might be very helpful.Of course you should ask your doctor if your on medications if these supplements are ok to take. :)
I'm so sorry that no one has ever responded to your posts. I see that this is from 2014...is that correct?
I have bad anxiety too and it is hard but you need to trust your doctor and take the medication. Sounds like you are frightened of everything even something that might help you. Are you seeing a therapist or a counselor because if you're not then I would highly recommend it. Medication alone won't help you. You need someone with behavioral experience to help you through this anxiety that is crippling you and your life.
I hope you get better because you need to experience life and what it holds for you.