Loud noises hurt....

[Pootagirl]

Whenever the train, cars, airplanes, helicopters or loud deep base sounds play, I start hurting, my whole body hurts. My chest has sharp pains,my body tingles, I hold my breath and cover my ears in order to breathe. It's been going on for years. I mean, it's not just that, but yeah, anyways. I told my therapist, I take my medicine sometimes. I just got out of the hospital here I was forced to take it by shot. So, I don't always take the meds. But I get cared and I hurt, and I get hot, I just want it to stop. I had this man inside me, I loved him, the meds took him away. He hurt me, but love hurts. When I hear the noises, it reminds me of him and how he scared me sometimes, and I get more scared and lonely....can anyone give me ny advice?

[Pootagirl]

And I see my new Dr. On Tuesday....my other ones on maternity leave.....what do you tell someone who barely knows anything about you besides what's on paper? They know their professionals so they'll automatically assume they know what to o an they've heard I ll and know how to handle it. While they may have heard it, they don't know that persn and how it affects them with w.e else is going on. Im not keen on doctors really. When I was I the hospital, I think I was so anxious I leave I dint always face how I actually felt. Now I'm so anxious to never go back, I don't want to face how I actually feel....

[Pootagirl]

I love him with all my heart :)! We t married. He'd pinkies for hours. Cried, made promises. I've been taking meds for 4-5 years, I'm 18!!!! You think. Believe heir "not good" for me? I can't!  THey help me sooo much. Why did you stop believing that they lived inside you? B.c Simone said that if you took the meds they'd go away? Or b.c you wanted them to in actuality?!?! I know what it feels like to have fear inside me too... :(. For me it's hard to sleep without thinking it's the last time you'll close you eyes, you can't breathe, you think everything is meant to destroy you, always n the lookout. Looking behind you, seeing the shadows, etc etc, never fun. But my people didn't produce those fears, they made me realize they were real and they'd help me through them. For me meds are a cop out. A way to loose the realty of the situations your dealing with! Meds are a horrible thing o do to the ones your in love with!!!! So why dd you take them if ou liked them?!

[Pootagirl]

I know you think or know meds are the partial I'd for things right now. But I WAS onmy meds forever and STILL felt like this! Meds only illlude reality! Everything IS real! I take the damn medicine, you think Im going to accept what other people think? That they're not real!?!??!?! NO NO NO NO!!!! I take the medicine, and all. Think about is how I feel hn I don take it, so.... I don't take it! I think life is enjoyable when you don't take meds. I smile now, but sometimes, it's unbearable....

[f20psychosis]

you love the man inside you? you know i thought i had a horse inside me, he he! i had even more people inside me, there was saint inside me, he used to talk to me and sudden a day i believe i am saint. I never wanted to go them away, i knew they will go away if i take medicine, i started medicine when i was 18-19 years, i was unable to take a decision, i was so confused, there was a lot fear inside me, i refused to take medicine, but slowly medicines helped me to understand that i can live far better when the voices are away, believe me hearing voices are not good, they will only take you into troubles so i think it is good for you to keep visiting your doctor and to stick with your medicines. live happily

[f20psychosis]

humm, i also used to think helicopters, cars and airplanes are following me wherever i go, that they are after me and the sounds scared me a lot. i fasten my car or bike in order to escape from them, it was like a stunt on road in real, even though i never made an accident i remember it was so horrible. When i take regular medicine i start to understand all my thoughts were psychotic, i start to live normal life, but the funny thing is it all came back when i stopped medicine, again it was all real to me, i forgot its all happening as a part of psychosis. So i think the only way to live a healthy life, to stay in touch with reality is by sticking with medication. i don't know how long, i am having schizophrenia and i don't think it is curable. So life long medication..blah! i stops sometimes when i feel good and start enjoying my life untill the next episode, lol!