33 Male. A lot of you have ready my previous posts over the past 2 years or more than that. I've been on this forum for about 9 years. Insane!
I will sum up my story/history as fast as I can first, in case this can help other people, or help them relate.
I've suffered from anxiety off and on from 2007. It was really bad for a few years, then when I decided that the meds were making me worse, I weened off of them in 2011/2012, and have been a different person ever since. IN A GOOD WAY!
Yes, I actually got better after getting off of my Ativan (Lorazepam).
Now, my current story.
2 years ago, I was doing a lot of running, b/c I still get some mild anxiety here and there. One day I noticed when I got an erection before having relations with my wife, my penis hurt. It was REALLY ODD. But i thought nothing of it. I just simply thought I strained something.
After 2 weeks of this, I finally went to the Dr., and he said I probably just pulled a muscle, and sent me home. NO biggie. Then that night, I started having bladder pain from HELL. It felt like I was holding my urine 24/7. The worst pain being a 10, and it was an easy 9.
I also was dribbling a lot, had a split stream, my urethra burned, my penis was cold and shrinking... it was SCARY! I ran back into my Dr's office the next day, and he just said I probably had a UTI. I was like "WHA!?? Guys don't get those usually." He tested me and I was NEGATIVE. But he gave me an antibiotic just incase.
I took the antibiotic for 2 weeks, and NOTHING changed. I was in the worst pain of my life. I'm surprised I was able to keep my job, but I just kept pushing through. I lost so much sleep at night. Feeling like you have to pee 24/7. Awful.
Then my lower back was hurting too. I went back to the Dr., crying, and he said "you have low back pain now? Then it's probably from pinched nerves in your back. You need good stretching and massage."
I was in tears.. I finally got a massage, and it DID help... however, I was left with BAD back pain for 10 months straight. My Dr. didnt do anything about it, nor take me serious.
Finally last June of 2015 I MADE him do an x-ray. My x-ray found an extra transverse vertebrae, but that was about it. The final x-ray report said "NEGATIVE."
Slowly over 2016, I started hurting more in my lower back, getting some relief from my chiropractor, and kept getting massage. However, I was starting to get BAD KNOTS too in my shoulder blades, shoulders, butt and low back.
I kept going back and forth to my Dr. with NO answer, and NO CONCERN. He just kept telling me that my anxiety was the problem.
Well, last week... I had an intervention with my Dr. I told him that I NEED AN MRI, AND I NEED ONE NOW. I told him I'm TOO YOUNG for all this crap.
He finally said "Okay... but this is just your anxiety making you do this. What are you going to do after this? Hopefully see a psychiatrist? Because you need it to help with your anxiety."
I had my MRI on Monday. The Radiologist asked me my symptoms I've had over the past 2 years, I told him about my bladder, erection pain, low back pain, leg weakness etc. He was in SHOCK that my Dr. waiting THIS LONG to do an MRI or a CT.
I'm not going to lie. A BIG part of me was expecting the MRI to show ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. I thought my Dr. could be right that ALL of this is ANXIETY, and just tight muscles putting pressure on nerves.
My MRI results came in my online medical records yesterday. I read the results. I'm NO doctor. But when it read "minor disc bulge in L3.-4, and Broad-Base disc bulge in L4-5", BINGO. I knew the L4-5 was probably my demon.
Those nerves control everything from the waste down. Bladder, Bowels, legs etc.
My Dr. has YET to call me back with HIS interpretation, and our next step. Hopefully he calls me tonight.
I'm a big ball of emotions... I don't know if I'll need surgery.. or if this can heal on it's own over time?
I wish I knew what was wrong with me 2 years ago, so I could have avoided SO much lifting and stuff over the past 2 years now.
What stinks is, when you have a history of anxiety... You are like the Boy Who Cried Wolf. And it's easy for the Dr. to think most of your issues are linked to anxiety... but now... I have an actual issue.
I hope he apologizes to me, and now takes me seriously. Just needed to vent.