I grew up in a house with a mother who insisted on talking down to everybody behind their backs, because of this I grew up constantly worrying about what everybody thought of me and that nobody liked me because I was used to having a mother like that, but the more I grew, the worse it got. My mother started taking me to see psychiatrists whenever I was 7 and use to tell everybody that we knew what all was said during the session and started telling people at different times that I was diagnost with ADD,ADHD,OCD,Bipolar and Schizophrenia without a single doctor ever confirming any of that. Then whenever I was 10 I finally had a doctor that only talked to me for 10 minutes and told my mom that I had ADHD and put me on these pills that caused me to loose so much weight that I almost became an anorexic before I was in the 5th grade but for a long time my mother refused to take me off of them. I quit seeing that doctor after my grandmother died and then my mom started acting like a child by provoking me into such rage so then she could tell me that I needed to see a psychiatrist for my anger issues but I would always refuse to go because I knew that she wanted everybody to think that she had a sick child. I am now 18 and this past year she tricked me into going to see another psychiatrist who told me that there was no way that a doctor could diagnose me with any type of brain disorder in 10 minutes after I told him about the ADHD thing, I never went back to him but things are still the same with me and my mother, I started having panic attacks 5 years ago and now I am forced by my step father to get a job or move out and I know that my nerves cannot take dealing with people and sure enough my mom suggests that I should see a psychiatrist over it but it isnt so much of the fact that she is the one causing all of this...but I grew up in a house where it meant that if you had to go to a psychiatrist than that meant that you were crazy, which Im not, but whenever I am in a office I feel like I am so mentally disabled that I should be put in a mental hospital, can somebody please help me with what I need to do before my nerves literally kills me? thanks