I certainly sympathize with you and your anxiety. Your situation deserves a larger, informed response than I can offer. However, I do think that proper counseling would be beneficial to you. With your parents help or through your family physician, find a counselor who deals with anxiety issues.
Thank you for your reply and I appreciate your concern! I do see a specialist on the topic but I feel like people don't understand. I try to give my best input but its really difficult.
I'm not sure you're actually on any medication for true bipolar, so I'm going to guess this is just another form of depression. Gabapentin is a pain medication for nerve pain that is also used off label for anxiety, but not for true bipolar as far as I know. Wish I could be of more help, but it's important to understand your meds. I kind of wonder, what's the real problem here, depression first or anxiety first? Because from my own experience your antidepressant is not the best for anxiety, though it can work -- the ssris tend to be used for anxiety more than the snris, which can be stimulating. So the only thing I would say is, the meds you're on, if you're still suffering this much, don't appear to be the right mix and that's something to investigate, at the least. What you don't mention is whether you're in therapy with a specialist in anxiety such as a practitioner of CBT. Are you?
Ya I wouldn't say I'm that bi polar. I use to get frustrated alot and would change interests back and forth. I believe that could have had a lot to do with just being a teenager and going through hormones . I believe it is anxiety first that is my problem . the anxiety is bringing depression because I can't get out into the world and I'm feeling useless. Also in terms of the meds I have also been on xanax and clonazapen. Didn't really work for me because of all the side effects it was giving me. Yes I am in therapy with a practitioner of CBT. Just started a couple months ago. I can say that I'm a lot better than I use to be a few years ago but I'm still struggling . just last summer though i felt like I was making a come back and I was getting out in the world and then all of the sudden anxiety starting haunting me again.