Nervousness waking me while sleeping

[RoxcieLadie]

Long story short.In the last 7 months, I lost my mother, my 21 yr old daughter moved to FL,My 2nd husband,my 17 yr old son moved out of my home state,we don't have steady jobs,no health benefits, & I am homesick for family still there (6 hours away) & for the good old family days of family,work,money & comfort. I went to Dr & goton 75mg of Zoloft & .05 mg of Xanax. I also have sleep Apnea, but don't use the CPAP.The Zoloft helps in the worrying ways, & the Xanax helps me fall asleep peacefully until 5-6 hours later. I wake EVERY morning at 5-6 am with the nervous feelings but only do I feel them on the insides. My body does not shake & I can feel my insides vibrate like a motor, but can not feel those with your hands or anything.When I get up it all goes away, & throughout the day I feel fine too. But if I try to nap or go back to sleep after waking so early, I am continually bothered with waking & inside nervousness for an hour or two, I say forget it & get up & feel fine. This all started one month after moving & the week I started my Zoloft.It has been 2 months now & I don't know if I need stronger Zoloft, or if it is side effects (which I took these meds in the past & had no side effects) or if it can be peri menapuase. The other thing is Xanax has kept me from waking up gasping for air, but I am still having dreams & waking with rapid heart beating. Am I going to live like this forever? I can't stand it & am worried.

[RoxcieLadie]

Thank you so much for your response,understanding & encouragement. I do have an appointment in 2 weeks for a follow up, but am going to call tomorrow because my Dr did say that she may be putting me up to 100mg & my prescription says 1 1/2 to 2 tablets a day, she didn't tell me yet to go ahead and take 2 but I think I am going to have too. It has been 10 weeks & I for the most part feel pretty good, but can tell I could use a little more boost. On the good note, I did get a job at UPS. It is part time, but a job. I know this is a lot to take in & I know what I have to do. It is just so hard to come out of your comfort zone & start all over. I lost my dad at 19 & now mom. I have 3 older sisters & they are back in MI. We are going to try this church out that is down the street from us & I KNOW that is really the first thing I need to do is get back into God's word. I do miss my old church and all & that just makes moving on hard to do.
Thank you again & I do feel better getting to talk, & getting replies. I am always here too if anyone needs.
God bless!

[mammo]

Hi.  You have many reasons to feel as you do, and I am so sorry for all you're enduring.
I used to tremble on the inside like you speak of and my psych said it was all due to the anxiety inside me.  They normally start you on the lowest dosage of an antidepressant and then want to see you in 6-8 weeks to see how you are feeling. It is normally at this point they need to increase your dosage.  I think you need to contact your doctor and let him know how you're feeling, he will know what to do. You've endured a lot in a short period of time, and this can be very over-whelming!  Your world has been turned upside down, and I suspect you don't even know which way to turn.  My family is spread out too, and I had to get involved in activities to keep me busy and make friends.  This is a tough time for all of us as the economy has impacted us all in some form or another.  Don't lose hope, you're not alone and we are a friendly group who understand and care.  Talk to us as much as you like, often just talking about things can help.  I think right now you need to prioritize your life, or you will be so over-whelmed.  Baby steps, improving things where you can, accepting what you can't change.  I know this is a difficult thing to do, but this is why you just take it one day at a time.  Do what you can to meet new people, this is a great avenue to finding a job as well.  It sounds like you are very healthy, but trying to overcome an awful lot, which are all very difficult things to overcome.  My heart goes out to you with all this, and I hope you stay with us for support.  Take care.

[RoxcieLadie]

Also I want to add, that I have had ALL the heart tests done & 15 years ago they said I had a mild mitral valve prolapse (which was not big deal) & then in March 2009, I all the tests done (EKG,Echo,Stress,48 hr Halter monitor & several images of my heart & they said I showed no mitral valve & had a VERY strong & healthy heart.I never have smoked, never have done drugs,I quit drinking socially all together & I cut out caffeine.I am in good health, with good blood test results too.I have had anxiety on & off all my life, but this sleep/nervousness is new & every night....& of course I have never moved out of state before,been without jobs,had my daughter move so far away & lose my mother. I am sure it is all related but I need more to get it all to go away.