No panic attacks in weeks now, but having weird "calm" feeling?

[Kat03]

Wondering if any fellow panic attack sufferers have had this issue:

A little background just so you know where I'm coming from...I have had anxiety/depression my entire life. I don't think there has ever been a day where I didn't have a nervous stomach or jitters.  In the past 3 years, I have had near-constant panic attacks and off-and-on depression.  

So...all of a sudden now I've been feeling pretty peaceful, as in I haven't had any panic attacks in weeks now.  A lot of stressors have been removed.  We were having very severe financial issues for the last 2 years almost, and now all of a sudden most of that is taken care of and I'm not worrying about money as constantly.  Also, I feel almost like some of the things I worried about before are just not bothering me anymore.  So...the problem is now that I don't have those constant thoughts running through my head; I'm not constantly budgeting money or thinking about what bills I need to pay, what time my husband will be home, who I'll call if there is an emergency (one of our other issues was that we had only 1 car that my husband had all day at work, and we had no long distance service on our phone so I couldn't call anyone I knew if there was an emergency--that is all taken care of now too), etc.; I feel really weirded out by this "silence" in my head.  Does that make any sense?  

I am still having anxiety, but instead of it being over money and things like that, it's more focused on my health (mainly focusing on my heart rate and BP because lately when I go to the doctor's office, it has been high, but then when I check it at home on my cuff monitor it's fine).  And I don't know if it's an unhealthy health obsession, since I have been focusing on feeling better:  losing weight, exercising more, taking better care of myself.  I am still having stomach problems/pains which I think are from anxiety, and also other health issues that are anxiety-related as well (I think).

The major issue is that this silence is really bugging me.  Could it be that my body is so used to stress and panic and the constant thoughts that I'm just not responding well to the new calm?

I hope this all makes sense and that I don't sound too crazy.  I'm not really sure how to word all of this, so I hope someone understands what I'm saying here!  Also, I have noticed that I feel very "emotion-less" lately, if that is a word.  I haven't been sad, tearful, angry, happy, etc.  Just feel very blank and like "nothing" but not suicidal or anything like that...just don't really feel anything at all.  

[Kat03]

Thank you all for your comments.  I have realized that this weird feeling is not something wrong, but it really is a strange feeling, especially when I'm so used to having that constant, anxious, inner dialogue going on in my head.  I have been in a state of constant anxiety for years now, and I don't think I know how to react to not having anything to worry about!  I'm sure that's the reason for focusing on health issues now...but I have a doctor's appointment in a few weeks and can be reassured at that time that nothing is wrong...or at least get to the bottom of things that are wrong that my previous doctor couldn't do.

[cj29]

It does not sound crazy to me at all.  When I first got through my panic and anxiety, the stress relief caused me some stress if that makes any sense at all:)  I would become on edge from feeling relief from anxiety, because my mind and body were just so used to being alert for so long.  The peace in my body and mind was actually very uncomfortable in the beginning which was ironic because that is what I had wanted for so long.   Furthermore, our worries tend to shift from one area to another in my experience, so focusing worries on something totally different than your original fears can happen and sometimes very suddenly.

For me, talking it through with a therapist has done wonders for me, even if I am not feeling on edge. I am able to recognize this pattern before it consumes me by talking it through with someone before it becomes an unmanageable problem.  Keep us posted!

[radagegi]

I'm 16 y.o boy and Ive had panic disorder for 4months now
I havent had any in a month, probably because I force myself not to stress alot....and it works, but I sometimes feel the way u feel.
Mood swings, ''calm'' feeling, scared of being anxious, scared of the future, death anxiety,..

[surfergirl10]

this is all new to me...and yes, I have had this before too. WEIRD though! However, I need it to come back now!

[barfer]

That high bp think at the doctor's office sounds an awful lot like white coat syndrome and it doesn't matter if he/she is wearing a white coat or not.  It is a term used to describe a person who once seeing their doctor automatically gets either a rash around their face, chest and neck and/or their blood pressure goes up dramatically.  

This feeling of calm may just be that you aren't used to being in a position of things going well for such a long time that you are expecting the other shoe to drop, so to speak.  This often happens with me.  I've gone through so much in my life that when things go smoothly, I almost become suspicious and have trouble dealing with what most would consider "normal".  If you can, try and just let yourself be happy and sit back and enjoy it.  The emotion-less feeling may be just because things are going well and there is nothing really to get worked up about.  Let time tell the tale and keep positive thoughts...don't let negativity become your friend.