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Not sure what to say or ask for......prayers?
I have posted here a lot and I thank you all for your wonderful advice. It has truly helped me.
I now begin to understand the pattern now of how this all works. I am strong. I am absolutely a solid rock against my anxiety as anxious thing happen to me. My dad died in May of 1996 of his cancer that he was diagnosed with about a year earlier. I had my first panic attack the summer after that. My next huge event happened in 2007-08 and is still pouring in. Divorced in December of 2007. Ex got remarried and I lost my job in 2008. Found a new (very stressful) job in August of 2009. Foreclosed on house in 2010. Rolled out new designed software by us in 2011.
Since December of 2012, my anxiety and depression has gone through the roof. My ex-wife is going through marital problems. I actually get along with her and her husband, so this has gotten me torn up. Our daughter was born with a cleft lip in 2005. Well, this is the year (at age 7) to get all of that done (April 25th) and now my mom (at age 77) has had all sort of health problems.....diabetes, congestive heart failure, faulty heart valves, etc. This has been going on for more than 10 years. Today she had to go for an arteriogram and the doctors are meeting to see what is best at this point and time. There seems to be a good chance that she would not survive an open heart surgery. She is also in renal failure.
I post all of this and feel selfish because I ask for you all to pray for me as much as for my mother. My anxiety is so high already, but now I have to endure through this and hope that when it is all said and done that I will actually live through the, what I call, the crash of anxiety.
I now begin to understand the pattern now of how this all works. I am strong. I am absolutely a solid rock against my anxiety as anxious thing happen to me. My dad died in May of 1996 of his cancer that he was diagnosed with about a year earlier. I had my first panic attack the summer after that. My next huge event happened in 2007-08 and is still pouring in. Divorced in December of 2007. Ex got remarried and I lost my job in 2008. Found a new (very stressful) job in August of 2009. Foreclosed on house in 2010. Rolled out new designed software by us in 2011.
Since December of 2012, my anxiety and depression has gone through the roof. My ex-wife is going through marital problems. I actually get along with her and her husband, so this has gotten me torn up. Our daughter was born with a cleft lip in 2005. Well, this is the year (at age 7) to get all of that done (April 25th) and now my mom (at age 77) has had all sort of health problems.....diabetes, congestive heart failure, faulty heart valves, etc. This has been going on for more than 10 years. Today she had to go for an arteriogram and the doctors are meeting to see what is best at this point and time. There seems to be a good chance that she would not survive an open heart surgery. She is also in renal failure.
I post all of this and feel selfish because I ask for you all to pray for me as much as for my mother. My anxiety is so high already, but now I have to endure through this and hope that when it is all said and done that I will actually live through the, what I call, the crash of anxiety.
That's so great of you to stay at the hospital with your mom. So she will be having the surgery next week? Which one did they decide on? Yes, you do have so much stress going on right now. Try to hang in there, okay. We're all thinking of you.
I am squalling right now. I am home, packing, getting ready to head to hospital. Tonight is my night to stay with her, and I don't deal with stress very well. I partially crying because of my mom, but right now all I can think about is my girl. I kept her from Monday night until this morning. It's the last time she will stay with me until after her surgery next Wednesday. This whole week I felt so distant from my daughter and she is my life, she is what I live for each and every day.
Once again, I have to say thank you. I didn't have to take ANY clorazepate today. Of course my boss wasn't at work and I didn't have to endure the traffic, but I am still thankful! Let's bring on tomorrow.
I said a prayer for you and your family. Continue to trust in God. Remember all that Job lost. And he still trusted God. And God rewarded that faithfulness in abundance. Nothing can separate you from His love and care
They do have a new kind of surgery that is less invasive. I do hope your mother can get this type of surgery.
I'm sorry to hear you had a panic attack. Being in traffic is awful.
I'm sorry to hear you had a panic attack. Being in traffic is awful.
Thank you all. Today I got to go visit her in the hospital. The doctors are trying to determine whether she is well enough for open heart surgery. They are considering another procedure that is only done in Atlanta, Nashville, and Dallas. I hope we hear something soon. I almost made it to the hospital without a panic attack but once I hit heavy traffic, it hit me!!!
"Heavenly Father, I lift up our friend alvaa to You in prayer, Lord. He has gone through so much in such a short period of time. Even one of those life-changing events would stress someone out, but alvaa has had several things to happen that have shaken him to his foundations.
Lord, I ask that Your Holy Spirit fill alvaa with Your peace which surpasses all understanding. Calm his nervous system with warmth and healing. Breathe new life into his lungs. Soothe his pains and anxieties and fears with Your eternal hope and love and comfort. Remind him that You are with him, You will never forsake him, and You will walk with him through all the trials that he is facing.
"So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10
"1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked advance against me
to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.
4 One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.
6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.
13 I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD." Psalm 27
Lord, I ask that Your Holy Spirit fill alvaa with Your peace which surpasses all understanding. Calm his nervous system with warmth and healing. Breathe new life into his lungs. Soothe his pains and anxieties and fears with Your eternal hope and love and comfort. Remind him that You are with him, You will never forsake him, and You will walk with him through all the trials that he is facing.
"So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10
"1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked advance against me
to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.
4 One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.
6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.
13 I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD." Psalm 27
prayers for you and your family GOD LOVES us all the same and never feel bad about asking fopr Prayers.
Do not feel selfish! We are here for you. And I will say a prayer for you and your mother.
Hi,
I want to start of by saying I am so sorry for all of these things you have and are going through. But you need to know that you are absolutely in no way being selfish.. We all need a little support once in a whole and asking for prayers for someone you love and care about is a very selfless act.. You seem to me to be a very strong component of your family.. Even though you may feel weak at times due to your anxiety you need to realize you are a very strong person.. After all you have been through you are still standing when you could choose to crumble.. You also should never feel selfish for asking for prayers for yourself.. You deserve a prayer sent up in your name just as much as anyone else.. just because you think that maybe your issues aren't as significant as others it doesn't make them any less important.. You are strong and whatever may come your way I believe you will be right there by your loved ones side to weather the storm.. Take care of yourself and God bless.. I will be sure to send a prayer up for you, your mother and your family :)
I want to start of by saying I am so sorry for all of these things you have and are going through. But you need to know that you are absolutely in no way being selfish.. We all need a little support once in a whole and asking for prayers for someone you love and care about is a very selfless act.. You seem to me to be a very strong component of your family.. Even though you may feel weak at times due to your anxiety you need to realize you are a very strong person.. After all you have been through you are still standing when you could choose to crumble.. You also should never feel selfish for asking for prayers for yourself.. You deserve a prayer sent up in your name just as much as anyone else.. just because you think that maybe your issues aren't as significant as others it doesn't make them any less important.. You are strong and whatever may come your way I believe you will be right there by your loved ones side to weather the storm.. Take care of yourself and God bless.. I will be sure to send a prayer up for you, your mother and your family :)
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