Panic Disorder, Anxiety and ROCD. Please help.?

[brian3131]

My name is Brian. I am 22 years old. I have suffered from severe panic disorder since I was around three years old. I started seeing a therapist, who diagnosed me with severe panic disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, agoraphobia, and hypochondriasis. I was put on Paxil and that really saved me. It took my panic away completely. After a while, the panic attacks started again. At this time, I started talking to (my current girlfriend) who lived in Florida, and we talked about me moving down to Florida since my life at home was bad. Anxious and all, I finally made the move. I have been living in Florida for almost three years. Now today, I am 22, and my panic attacks are extreme. I can’t go to any store without having a panic attack. My girlfriend is extremely supportive, and understands everything I go through. I have tried Cymbalta, Abilify, Elavil, Clonazepam, Ativan, Valium, Desipramine, and now Zoloft. I felt no affect from Zoloft 50mg so I was upped to 100mg. At 100mg my ROCD (relationship Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) kicked in at full force. I feel like my girlfriend is a stranger, and I can feel love. Terrible timing, since I need her more than ever. Anytime I am on too high of a dose of medicine, I get very bad ROCD. Such as negative thoughts, doubting the relationship, not feeling love, etc. All of the SSRI, and SNRI’s have done this too me if I’m on too much. I’ve clearly tried many medications, but they hurt and don’t help. I have tried all natural, meditation, tapping, group therapy, etc. I have tried everything. I am always worried about fainting, and health related illnesses, which I’m told is from having a heart condition from birth.

My ROCD and Panic Disorder are killing me. Please offer me advice.  I am so sick of the negative thoughts that I have when it comes to my girlfriend. I can’t take it anymore. It makes me feel like I cant access that love part of my brain.

[headhighalwayz]

I'm not so sure I really Kno meds answer why I came here my nerves again from mental abuse and fronting fake thieves liars and claim they care about me and it's to the point Al I no longer trust around me have called me beyond terrible names I'm far far from never been Al my life it's constant drama again my nerves are So dam bad I stay so sick on my stomach aware I cannot move that bad I'm not eating drinking fluids I'm that sick also I have had a severe panic disorder since 1990 and all I am gasping for one piece of a breath then I'm bi pilor also the manic depression is killing me I have nowhere to go to get away not to mention the mental abuse I am living in listen I'm so ******* sick I have so bad to dare try to get my meds down anyone any ideas

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[riicky92]

Mate the only thing I can think of is the linden program look it up online but it does cost that is y I haven't tryed it