Hello, and thank you for your time, am gonna briefly explain my history to give anyone helping, the complete overview;
Am a 25 year old male living in Norway, around 70kg and 174cm tall.
Suffered from depression at young age due to acne, general existential despair and a whiplash that left my neck and back hurting ever since(elementary school). Took "Roaccutan" for acne, it left me even worse off mentally.
After years of feeling unsatisfied and unhappy i started smoking weed, it was very fun, but after years my addiction got to a point i was smoking everyday, all the time, eventually life caught up to me and i had to get back into work, but right before that i had a stomach flu that might have developed into IBS, along with anxiety, which came on very strongly if i smoked weed, i quit drugs(doing only weed) and slowly recovered using SSRIs(cipralam).
2 years of working in as a cab driver, my IBS issues was starting to really tear on me even though i changed my eating habits, quit smoking etc according to the IBS recommended plan. My anxiety came back as the constant stomach(bowl) pain eventually burned me out, my neck and back was getting worse and sitting on my arse all day gave me 20kg of weight up to 84kg(i was 64kg), but with my bowl issues and anxiety peaking and the more or less resignation from work, i lost that weight in around one month.
when i quit weed(due to severe anxiety attacks) i also started getting myclonic jerks at rest, and everywhere except head area, they are subtle and rare, but during anxiety they are frequent and less subtle. I've started on Cipralam again, but they never healed my jerks.
In the last months i've been actively training my back(was having external chest pains, due to the ribs i assume)
I just now quit masturbating(from once a day) since i read that too much could have bad effects on my mentality. And doing kegels, because my physiotherapy guy told me that would help my lower back.
taking vitamins and omega acid supplements, even though my bloodwork came back very good, my fecal test was also good. I have not taken any other tests.
My anxiety is much better now, but still there, IBS is still a *****.
It's worth mentioning that am not suffering from depression like i did when i was young, i just want to get well and stop having these now small attacks(which happen if i get little rest(sleep) or even when am in a very slightly stressful situation) it seems like my brain is still producing to much adrenaline in response to stress.
Thank you for bearing with me, I guess my question is; will my jerks go away? also any general advice will be greatly appreciated.
PS: Roacutan was/is a very harsh drug, and revealed to have terrible side effects and actually used in chemo therapy, i will never recommend it to anyone. It can cause long term damage, and some of them coincide with my issues, but am not putting all my cards on that.
-T