Someone help me..

[BritDillon]

Not to be dramatic or anything....Just thought I would get it out there...

I wake up usually after a night of waking up 4x...due to sensations, pain and stiffness. Not very well rested...my right foot is totally stiff I hobble out of my room go to the bathroom...I'm usually greeted by my ridiculous period which  has gone from having it three weeks at a time to now getting it most of the year and maybe only a 3 week break in the whole year....btw why in the world hasn't any Gyno given me a DNC..............Anywho I perform my normal motherly duties all the while getting all the warning signs of an impending migraine, All the while dealing with thoughts of hopelessness, dread and despair. I feel like I'm literally shaking on the inside all day long till my husband gets home. Hourly heart palpitations. I attempt to do a lot of typical stay at home mom stuff..I spend a lot of time calming my self down, in prayer etc. My husband gets home in the evening, I feel a lot safer. He helps me rationalize things and calm down. I usually get pretty happy. Constant thoughts in my head about myself..........Do I have some horrible disease, Does everyone think I'm worthless and a trashy, Does everyone think I'm ugly...Why won't God let me have a baby....PLEASE GOD GIVE ME A BABY.....I am a horrible mother...I'm never going to lose weight...I don't deserve my husband....We will never be able to buy a house...I'm going to die soon...I'm falling so behind in everything...I have no friends...I'm going to drive my husband insane and he will die young and I'll be alone....I'm going to be just like my parents and the rest of my family..

I usually pick a physical feature I need to improve upon every 6 months...right now it's my skin.



I never give up completely. I know it's my duty to keep it together. I distract myself as much as possible..


What do you all think I should do to get my life in order?

[BritDillon]

THANK YOU!! I started the day feeling pretty crummy and now I feel validated and hopeful.

[nursegirl6572]

Also, please check out our PCOS Community...I think you will find it very helpful!

http://www.medhelp.org/forums/Polycystic-Ovarian-Syndrome-PCOS/show/203

[nursegirl6572]

PCOS is usually what CAUSES the weight issues, not the other way around.  Plus, the condition usually leaves a person a hormonal wreck, which explains the skin problems, cycle irregularities and most of your other medical issues.  

While it can be difficult to treat, there are options for managing PCOS.  Have you had a second opinion from a new OB?  I would sincerely recommend you pursuing that.  If you could manage to start treating the PCOS, many of these other problems would probably resolve or improve greatly.

Sounds like you've had some pretty unpleasant experiences with the medical field, no wonder you're not in a hurry to see more doctors.  I promise you that if you look, you WILL find one that truly wants to help you and give you options.  It's well worth it, even if you have to see every doctor in your state to get there.  When you call around, explain that you're interested in a doc who has experience in treating PCOS.

Hang in there!

[BritDillon]

I have pcos with high testosterone. I don't have any cysts on my ovaries, I get acne, excessive body hair growth, and skin discoloration. I had to go to an urgent care back in feb. I had a sinus infection with bad back radiating back pain. It ended up I was SEVERELY constipated. My organs were moved out of place. The doctor there said that I should see an endocrinologist very soon. I've had my thyroid tested in the past and nothing.

I guess I've gone to some pretty bad doctors or my perception is off but I can't seem to get myself to one anymore. After being pretty much hounded about my weight I can't handle it anymore. I'm incredibly overwhelmed and they want me to up and change my entire lifestyle. I can't even handle the one I have now. My former GYN says the PCOS is caused by my weight...well when I was 160lbs less than I am now I still had these problems and their answer is either birth control, weight loss or Metformin which did nothing for me.

I used to go to therapy a 2 years ago but my therapist moved, I miss her a lot. I was in for 3 years. Before therapy I was completely suicidal and couldn't pull myself off the floor. Now I can honestly say I've come a long way from there...I have some semblance of a normal life. I just feel like I'm on a plateau. I'm ready to be totally free. I can't drive which totally screws up everything. My husband is incredibly supportive but he's not very consistent when it comes to seeing things through. His job is very demanding and only so many docs want to make appts. in the evening hours.

[nursegirl6572]

Hello there and welcome. Sounds like you're stuck in a cycle of negative thinking and thoughts of despair and low self esteem.

For one...find an OB/GYN who will address your period issues, that is just ridiculous!  You shouldn't have to go through that!  My guess is, after hearing about the menstruation issues, you may have a hormonal imbalance as well that could be causing (or adding to) many of your symptoms, both physical and emotional.

For the rest of your emotional issues, your feelings of insecurity, fear and impression of low self worth, I would suggest some therapy.  A therapist can help you work through your thought processes, find out where they are coming from, and how to turn them around.

We have a lot of daily stress in life and you have a lot on your mind.  It's OK to need help.  You owe it to yourself.  

Let us know how you're doing, we care!