Keep playing, if you can. Avoidance is the disease. I played a lot of basketball before I got too old, then did kung fu before I got too injured for that. I miss them, still exercise a lot doing what I can. I did get anxious in kung fu, but still did it. Got to keep the body active. You don't want to retreat into solitude.
Yeah I used to play everyday. Alone at a park,, with friends and my brother all the time. I went to state and won first place track as well. But once anxiety hit me, ive been scared to go back to the field or to run very fast. I think my heart is goona explode or something. I'm also scared of surgeries. I think i wont wake up after they inject the anesthesia. I hate orthodontists too.
I used to manage and play soccer when I was at my worst as far as leaving the house was concerned. The doctor saw it as an escape for me. Player manager of a senior team. Used to take the training sessions as well. Always had to be in the thick of the action. Too much time without the ball and I might start to drift a bit. So why not try for a new position on the team. Midfield. Were most of the action takes place. Used to be odd. I couldn't leave the house at all. Except to play soccer matches. It was always worth the effort. Success came with it too. Maybe that made it all the more worth while. League title after league title. So it can be done. Used to be a great release for me. So much energy that wanted to explode outwards.
I have GAD and have been a horseback rider for many years. After not riding for 6yrs I am now experiencing anxiety when I ride. I know how you feel. You are not alone.