Panic attacks and my future?

[ClaraFlos]

I have recently experienced what I guess are panic attacks. The following info might not important but it will. I always wanted to be an actress. My father, who is slightly abusive, is constantly smashing all my dreams. Every time I find a new thing that I might want to be when I grow up, he puts me down and yells about that it is stupid to want that. Acting has been my first dream. I have held on the that dream for ten+ years.I recently got into Chloë Grace Moretz. The famous actress. I am a big fan. So my dream of acting has been appearing in my thoughts. I am a bit shy, so I believe that I will never achieve my dream. But suddenly, when ever I see Chloë’s face, or think of the word future, I have a panic attack. My heart speeds up and I have palpitations. I get slightly dizzy. I feel extreme fear. The worst of it last at most ten seconds.  But the cool down last at most ten minutes. I love Chloë, I love watching behind the scenes of movies. I love film making. My YouTube feed it just movie clips, Chloë and other actor interviews, and behind the scenes. Everytime I watch a video or hear something related to film, I have a panic attack. I do not understand why I started these attacks recently. It might be because of my father. I don’t know. Please help me.

[Paxiled]

You don't say how old you are or whether you're actually doing anything in pursuit of acting.  Very few parents, unless you're from a wealthy family and it just doesn't matter what you do or you're from the family of a famous and successful actor, are going to be thrilled to hear their kid wants to be an actor -- or a writer or a film maker or a comedian or a professional athlete or a billionaire.  The reason is that almost nobody gets to actually achieve those things no matter how hard they try -- that's just fact.  But you also only get one life and if you know what you want to do, you're in a rare class of people -- most of us grow up wanting to be different things at different times and the vast majority of people get a job just to make money, not because it's their passion to do that job.  Anxiety, on the other hand, can happen to anyone, the ambitious and the not ambitious, the successful and the not successful, the happy and the not so happy.  It's an odd thing.  Nobody here is a psychologist, but most of us have probably been to see a few, and that's where you go first to discuss this kind of thing.  Who knows if your father is causing this?  The other thing about the internet is, we only hear one side of every story and we just have to accept it, but it might not be what's actually happening, it might be what we perceive to be happening.  You haven't described abusive.  But again, I grew up in a lower middle class family and neighborhood, and if you wanted to do anything related to the arts you were made to feel pretty bad about it by somebody.  You either persist against all odds or you don't, that's life.  The world's full of lawyers who wanted to be baseball players.  It is what it is.  But that's a different thing than getting anxiety attacks, and that's the thing you need to address so you can figure that part of your life out and move on to becoming an actor.  

[Paxiled]

And let me add, ever read about most actors?  Not a bunch of emotionally healthy people, really.  Same with artists, writers, etc.  It's a hard go but someone has to do it, right?  I can identify, because I've spent a lot of my life trying to be a novelist and short story writer for a living, and it ain't gonna happen because of this anxiety problem.  So get that fixed if you can.