Ill keep this brief as possible....
I feel it is my duty to help anyone else who is suffering from panic attacks, anxiety and other severe and minor stress related problems.
Im 30 years old, good physical health. Finances good, marriage life good, basically a perfect life. But there was something missing. I worked most of my days, slept only a few hours a night, and ate 1 meal per day mostly. I never did anything for fun, and when I did, it was something I shoudnt be doing - ( seeing other women, smoking, drinking, engaging in lustful activities,etc )
Slowly I began to bore with living this hidden life, and it began to stress me out more than it pleasured me. I fought more with my mistress than I did with my wife. I cheated in my business ventures, meaning I stole money, I was rude to people, selfish, jealous, uptight, amd just down right monsterous at times.
One day I was working in my office, and I just " clicked ". The machinery inside my body just shut down. I didnt know what was happening...I thought maybe I was dieing. The bad thing is, I couldnt die.....and I couldnt bare to live. A taste of obliviion. A soul trapped between the light and the darkness, with no where to turn.
I was rushed to the ER.....to only find all of my tests were negative. I was diagnosed with having a PANIC ATTACK. Something I had never experienced. For weeks, I would have returning episodes of attacks. I laid in my bed in the darkness for days at a time, crying and wishing for relief. I was presecribed xanax, which did help me sleep, but the side effects were not worth it to me ( muscle twitching, dry mouth, headaches, drowsyness, muscle weakness. ) I took it for about a month off and off and just stopped taking them. My doc even prescribed paxil, but I refused to take them.
TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT.
Stress and anxiety are all manifested PHYSICALLY. Meaning that the problem usually ends in the mind, but its starts from something in the physical world. Drugs such as xanax and valium and paxil only MASK what is needed to be done...and that is to ELIMINATE THE PHYSICAL MANIFESTATIONS OF THE STRESS.
Simple...MINES WAS MY LIFE..........
I was cheating on my wife, mean to people, selfish, jealous, uncaring, cold, full of lust, anger and disbelief, eating wrong, drinking and smoking.
I decided it was only ONE doctor who could heal me.....
I called my mother who is a pastor, and she came and prayed for me. I cried, I cried, and I cried. I asked God to reveal himself to me, and show me how to become a better person. I promised to end my evil ways in return from freedom from the attacks of anxiety and stress.
It wasnt an instant win....but each day I could see progress within my life, and my spirit. Hope enterted into my heart, and a new person was born. The panic attacks werent SOLVED, but I realised the source of them......and that source WAS MY OWN SELFISH HEART. I had to change my evil ways....and that is the only solution to ending anxiety, stress and panic attacks.
When you understand God, you understand yourself. When you understand yourself, you understand others, and thus makes you can forgive others, and love others, and have patience when stress strikes at you.
I no longer take the pills, and when I feel stressed...or a panic attack coming from an event, I STOP WHAT IM DOING, I CALL ON GOD, I CRY, AND I PRAY. It works......BETTER THAN ANY PILL. AND I DARE ANY OF YOU TO TRY IT. What do you have to loose?
Im still healing, but I had to share this, because now I can relate to others who go through a disease that I use to often make fun of myself. I am much better than I was, and I enjoy life, I respect my wife, I dont smoke or drink, I eat better, exercise and I TRY to love all....and once again...it has helped me better than ANY PILL. Problems will always occur in our life, but knowing how to handle them will keep stress away.
" Knowledge of the negative, means ignorance of the positive. Surround yourself with Godly people, nice people. If something is too hard for you to do, ask for help, and if it still cant be done, leave it alone. Dont worry about the future, because thinking about the future does NOTHING to help the ' NOW '. Forget the past, because it is lost in time. It is only remembered, because you choose to think of it. "
My name is Marc...and my email is ***@****
If I can help anyone, I would very much like to do so. God Bless.