It's 1:20, kept myself busy all moring. I'm counting down the minutes until 2:00 until the next dosage. I'm getting inwardly nervous. I'll see if I get jittery with this dosage.
I' noticing a pattern, about 4 hours after my morning dosage,I get inne shakines, is this something to be conerned about or more withdawal? Mary
Doc called me back yesterday, told him symptoms hadn't subsided,muscle aches in back, don't want to eat, inability to feel comfortablel, make my self comforted in any fasion, lack focus and concentration, people say stuff to me and I don't know what they just said, want to crawl into a warm cocoon but that probably wouldn't help eithr, sometimes feel chilled, nervousness, hard to find somhow to just relax, just can't to anything productive. I asked him if I was sill in withdrawal and he said absolutely. He told me to take .50 3 times a day until I stabalize more.
Then today I had to take my 85 year old mother to the ER, and I don't know if I mentined, but my dad has esophageal cancer. Usually, when they get sick I am in worse shape, maybe the Klonopin is helping?
I do feel a little better today considering I made it in one piece. As I take the dosage, I'm not gettting wiped out, sleepy like I used to. Is my body adjusting? Maybe it's just going to take me longer. I have to have faith, faith, tht I will see my way out of the woods, but that creeping anxiety is making me think that these syptoms are the Klonopin and not withdrawal and maybe Ativan was the drug that matched me, but I am not going to give up yet. I have to go and try and get myself in a state of relaxation. I didn't want you to think I fell off the face of the earth. This is a tough road thrugh the woods. Mary
Bad bad day. Bad, bad anxiety. I had to take .25 Klonopin at lunch and then I fell asleep. I'm ust not good. Called the doc. Haven't heard from him yet. Mary
I did the .50 this morning. How long should I hold out until I take the next .50 for the day? Isn't it every 12 hours; I'll read past posts to see if I can find the answer. It's Sunday, Day 12. I went for a massage. Massage therapist said I'm a ball of tension and knots in neck, shoulders, and back. No wonder, what I have been through... I am going to go for a massage every week.
Ryan,
Bad day so far. I can't figure out why I can't get better control of the mornings. Took my .50 at 6:00 AM, and it's almost one and I haven't felt any relief. I am just trying to push myself to function. I walked the do at 7:00 and went to work out around 10:00, thinking that would calm me down. But now I even get panic about working out. A panic attack on an elliptical is no fun. Ryan, I am trying so hard, so hard, so hard. I work out at a health club affiliated with their a cardiac rehab center, because it's close to home an cheaper than a health club. My pulse was 97. By the way, the doc said no Propranalol either. I hate this feeling of inward restlessness, jitteryness, wishing someone could rock you, or you could crawl in a warm slightly tight cocoon. I have a Klonopin sitting on the kitchen counter with my trusty pill splitter. I'm trying not to take one this early. But when your are jumping inside. This hot weather doesn't help either, cabin fever, it's like "meta-anxiety."
What do I obsess about? My health. I'll get a pain that I can't explain away and it'll just take off in my mind, the uncertainty. My first attack was over 20 years ago. I experienced shortess of breath in the '80; doc in the ER gave my Xanax. It had just come out I think. Thank goodness I never got on it.
I could go on an on about bodily sensations that have almost ruined me. Once there was the brain tumor, lump in throat, many times where I couldn't get control of the shortness of breath. People laugh.
I know you said two more days, two more days. Mary