Hiya everybody, i've done this question based on something i think is very common for people such as myself and others here that suffer with anxiety.
I have had in the past and still continue to put up with episodes of depression, stress and anxiety which has come and go since my late teens. i've lost count the medication i've had to take for depression and recently i've gone through a spiral of antibiotics and allergie related meds.
The problem with me is, i am a very big hypochondriac, the slightest sign of any dizziness, headache, discomfort or unsettling feeling throws me off and i panic, which i think many of us in this community can relate to such as when something happens you immediately think...
"its something serious!!...."
"I'm gonna die I'm gonna die!"
"I'm gonna faint, this is something terrible!!!"
with those thoughts going around in my head it has and still brings me to my knee's almost keeling over. i was told thoughts like that are whats known as the Vicious circle i.e you get something crop up, it bothers you longer than a few minutes, you keep thinking on it, and so on and so on.......
Currently the biggest worry and its something i cannot stand...
DIZZYNESS AND HEADACHES!!!!!!
i cannot begin to explain the amount of distress and upset it puts me through, i put up with head pain, neck complaints and dizzyness that is physically making me sick!, i've been running in and out of my doctors in a stupor trying to find out what is going on, and with my situations at home not being ideal to cope with my complaints, its harder to deal with.
i'll list what i have, its the only way i find easy to explain what is going on....
Current medication i'm on is Amitriptyline 10mg, was on amoxillian for what the doctors thought was Sinustisis and chest infection but i'm not even sure that was a positive diagnosis...
Dizzyness - it happens DAILY, it strikes at any time and lasts all day or periods on and off. worse when i move around, use the laptop, tilt my head forward or worry a lot. feels like going down on a plane or floating and the worst sensation is the pressure that emitts from the back of my neck and shoulders on my back..it comes in a like, shiver or hot flush feeling and makes me cringe, like my head is heavy and i'm about to faint!
Headaches and pains - (doctors think migrainous nature) - again DAILY!!, can start from the onset in the morning all through the day, from small and dull ache to burning pain on my right side (sometimes both sides) of the head,neck,temple behind my right ear (or both sides!) and shoulders and back,and in my jaw! like a toothache. i can hear a sort of crunching noise under my ear both sides when i move my teeth (TMJ maybe???!!!),
Fatigue - it is chronic, i cannot sleep some nights and if i do its a few hours at most.
Panic attacks and Rapid heartbeat
Mental confusion and Stress off the scales
i'm too the point of terrified these are serious and fatal conditions :(, i struggle with social interactions and hide everytime i go to the doctors because of pure fear that i'll be admitted for an MRI or CT scan. which they as yet haven't felt nessassery to do.
i dont like to admit defeat but, i'm at a loss. most of these things could be something so stupid and minor, but, in my mind its something i just cant deal with, and i need to last a month before i can see the GP again (thats how long i'll be on the new meds)
No matter how small the advice, i'm open to anything from someone who's been through this or is going through it.
it has to stop eventually, i know that much.
thankyou in advance.