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What is happening to me ??

Hello everyone,
I was wondering whether anyone of you has experienced something that had happened to me?
I was 10 years old when I jumped from my sleep, paralyzed with fear and I shouted to my mom "Here it comes, here it comes". I was just a little girl and had no idea what was happening to me. I was shaking and was barely able to walk or speak. My mom thought I just had a bad dream that scared me. But, I had the same feeling the following day, as if one side of my body suddenly starts vibrating or drifting in pulsing intervals followed by a dreadful fear. My heart start beating and I lose myself, it feels as if I am going insane and I can not stay calm. I get scared every time because I do not know what is happening to me, I start shaking just by thinking about that dreadful feeling. As a child I, used to explain it to myself as a fear "that is approaching", a fear I did not know the origin of. It had been lasting for about a month, daily vibrations followed by fear (several times a day, no matter what I was doing, whether I was playing, just sitting or sleeping). I consulted my doctor and all tests were good, I was even asked if I saw something when I shouted "here it comes", but I saw nothing. I was completely aware, oriented. Such seizures stopped, by I still have the fear they will return and I was never able to relax and was in constant fear. Such occurrence repeated a year after; again it lasted for about a month. Then it stopped and came back 2 years latter. The last time it happened was 12 years ago. So, for the last 12 years I do not have that drifting sensation, but I am constantly afraid that such episodes will reoccur. Most people have some anxiety panic attacks followed by similar symptoms - heart beating, fear of being alone on a bus, fear of confined spaces, sense that everything around disappears... I am unable to relax and I am always very tense (I am afraid, but I do not know what am I afraid of), but I am not sure can I link anxiety to what I am experiencing. All tests I have ever taken came back good. I often think maybe my problems are linked to my puberty and growing up, since it all started when I was still little. It is hard to speak about this with anyone, because when I was afraid and whenever anyone mentioned my fears I would put my hands over my ears and stop listening. I live in panic fear, waiting for that "drifting" sensation followed by panic fear and heart biting comes back. Often, when I lay in bed, I start shaking for no particular reason. Please, if you had similar experienced or know anything about this, please help me !
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I never realized it until reading your story. I had similar things happen as a child and into adulthood. I thought my first attack was about 25 years ago but reading your accounts, they were earlier. I would wake up paralyzed with fear and couldn't move. No dream or anything like that. Just the utmost scariest feeling in the world that I am going to die! Just such a sensation of fear. I never told anyone because I felt embarrassed that I was scared. I would have attacks if I could see my Mom or even my husband today if in a store and get detached from them for several minutes. I feel like they left me and I will never get home. I am fearful and alone paralyzed with fear. To me it seems irrational. None the less it happens. I never mentioned this to my counselor or doctor. I never really thought about it. I suffer from anxiety attacks that feel like a heart attack. My chest feels like a freekin elephant is sitting on it. I take meds but they don't help it so far. They helped at first but it has been three years since I got help and I can't understand why now it is starting again. My doc is on maternity leave and I hate talking to people I don't know. I trust my doc. I also trust my husband's doc so I guess I will be making an appt. to see him. I suggest you seek medical help and a recommendation for a therapist. At first I fought it. Now I am thankful I got help.
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Check out the symptoms of depersonazalizion anxiety
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thanks bubblez91 for your advices,I read a lot of anxiety about panic attacks and a similar.. there are plenty of similar symptoms but nowhere i cant find similar attacks suddenly starts vibrating or drifting.Sometimes i have more than 20 attacks in one day,and so on during a monath ,than its stops. i visited many doctores but without final resut coz no one ever met with similar situacion ! so i m traying to find anyone, ever heard of this or have a same problem. Best regard from Croatia.
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I had a simular experince when i was younger and my anxiety attacks started in my sleep at first i didnt know what they were i thought they were waking dreams but they were anxiety attacks during sleep! Scary but the ones i have while im awake coz yu cant wake up from being awake :l honestly yu have to deal with the anxiety if yu ignore it... itll only get worse, talk to a doc. Maybe meds can help. find out what triggers it and fix that. But many times they happen randomly with no trigger, the dr. Told me its sometimes caused by a chemical inbalance in the brain and only meds will help.
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