Im suffering from fear, guilty and anxiety in the last 3 months.
IM male, had sex with female CSW, unprotected oral and protected vaginal and anal. After that, I had all the symptoms, sore throat, low grade fever, muscle and joint pains, swollen lymph nodes, etc. My fiancee had also symptoms, what drove me out of my mind. I did several tests for STDs, the last one after 8 weeks of exposure. At week 10 I got very ill, with a severe sore throat that made me lost my voice. After 15 days of medication, i became better, but now developed rash in arms and a big mouth ulcer near my wisdow tooth. I have this now for 5 days. Im at 3 month mark now.
Im not myself anymore, and fear the worst.
I will get married in the end of this month, and dont know what to do. Should I test now again? If negative, I think I can move with my life. If positive, I dont think I will be able to continue, Im already having suicidal thoughts.
If I dont test, I think I can proceed and ger married, but I will have this fear.
Appreciate your thoughts.