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When is it "the voices"? (sorta diagnosed with health anixiety)

Hi, long story short. I am a hypochondriac and recently been freaking out about having schizophrenia in particular and it got extremely worse when i learned that i am at a slight change of inheriting it from my father
I have already talked to the practicing psychiatrist (i mean, he could be lying or be poorly qualified, but why would he) who said i have anixiety disorder and all that stuff and that i am in the hypochondrical cycle  

I was first afraid of the delusions thinking that my hypochondriac fears (after my mom's death of cancer) may be that. But from googling and researching that myself i still wasn't sure about what i have. I did have criticism of my own condition (for me it was like a scale when facts and risks are placed on two sides and one outweighs another). Meaning i was never sure that i have particular disease, thats why i was looking for help. I only understood that i am okay on delusions when i've read that the believes in schiz are so severe that the medicine is used to treat them. Which i wouldn't need, the right words and evidence would convince me

Then i think i am on another cycle now. It started almost as soon as i made enough research on delusions and got convinced that i am good

But now i have been afraid of the voices. So i've had a question. Two days in the row i've had a few incidents of something similar to "voices" but both cases could be explained by something else. BEFORE THAT I'VE NEVER HAD EXPERIENCE HEARING VOICES
I work retail and yesterday when closing and looking if everyone left, in the supposeddly store for a second i thought i've heard voices somewhere far away, like some sort of murmur and it felt like "ah, what was that?". But i was super tired (after an 8 hour shift) and there was lots of noise in the building, such as conditioner, radio, animals screaming (i work at petco) and it later turned out that there were janitors in the building who maybe were talking to each other. And later on i tested and it turned out that i could recreate the exact same sound in my head and stop it whenever i want by another thought or by starting doing something else and thinking about it, so maybe it even was myself thinking of what to look, imagining it and getting scared of my own imagination for a second since i was super tired and not thinking straight

The second case was today, and it would be also possible to explained it by something else. I was ringing the person up and i've heard someone say "****!" right into my ear, like not addressing me, but like if someone said it to themselves/ the sound was coming from outside and was not inside of my head and it was coming from the direction of a person and there were 2 more people within my hand reach who could've said it. I did ask my coworker about it later on, but he said he heard nothing, but also he maybe didnt even get what i was talking about and he maybe wasnt paying attention, whatever. So that could be explained by assuming that some of the people that stood close to me had said it and from what i understood, its more common for schizophrenics to hear voices inside their head.

So what i wanted to know is, if there is no clear evidence that there is a voice in my head and what i hear could be explained by something else, i shouldn't yet be bothered by it right or at least not assume that what i have are the voices? Meaning if i was sitting alone and had a voice is one thing, but another is when there is at least semi-reasonable explanation right?

Also there is a thing of me now expecting a voice to pop up at some point and i am super afraid.

I am right now in search of a specialist, but i was never called back yet.
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chance, sorry, was typing too fast i think
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Just a clarification: THE GUY I TALKED TO WAS ONLINE NOT IRL, thats why i am still tiny doubtful
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From what you say here you're an anxiety sufferer and it's getting worse.  You don't describe schizophrenia.  Googling symptoms will drive you nuts, though -- so many symptoms can result from a large number of things there's no way to properly Google it.  Combine that with the reality that Google is now so gamed that the things that pop us when you Google something might not be the best information available -- that might be on page 1000 when you get past all the people selling something who have professionals gaming Google so their pieces pop up first.  If you truly had schizophrenia you probably wouldn't know it -- people suffering from psychosis usually don't know the voices probably aren't real until someone gets them into treatment.  You do.  Anxiety can focus on anything depending on the person, and in your case given you mentioned a parent's death, it's possible this has frightened you.  What you need to do first, in my opinion, is see a psychologist who specializes in the treatment of anxiety and see if you can't get a handle on it.  In the meantime, exercise, meditation, dietary changes (cutting down on drugs and alcohol and sugar, for example) can not only help you mute the anxiety but also make you feel more in charge of what's going on.    
And let me add, having been a retail manager for many years, when you're in a business alone there are all kinds of noises.  They only bother someone who is already feeling scared.
You can't self diagnose schizophrenia and your diagnosis was anxiety so I would stick with that unless you get a different diagnosis. Likely you brought up schiz before your diagnosis so at least it wasn't overlooked by the professional.
Not sure schizophreniacs don't all know the voices aren't real though. My diagnosed schiz friend's mother told me a story similar to this one at the bottom of the page about her daughter taking about the awful voices. https://*****************/question/index?qid=20120720214556AAJ3pJX
"Depends. My brother was a schitzophrenic and he knew they were not real but he would say that they would tell him to do things. Others don't know."
Yeah i did mention schz to that doctor guy, as i said it was online and more of a casual forum discussion
Basically he told me that what i have is definitely anxiety and that i should talk to the trauma/ptsd/whatever specialist
It was a bit before the voices started and after we figured the delusions out, he immediately mentioned how that since i am in the hypochondriac cycle, i will soon find something else to worry about and there it is, the next day it comes
Ok, you know it isn't schiz so hopefully you can just stick to working on the diagnosed problem, anxiety and hypochondria. Self-diagnosis is rarely correct, so keep that in mind when you have another hypochondria issue to deal with.
Good advice, just want to add that hypochondria is just a form of anxiety, not something different.  Anxious people do tend to focus their anxiety on different things -- mine started with airplanes and moved on from there but has never included health anxiety, but that's just me.  For you, it has manifested as hypochondria, but it's still anxiety.  Either something happened in your life to create this insecurity, or it's just one of those unexplained things we don't yet understand.  Either way, I hope you get a handle on it.
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