Oh Dear How are you now?? it seems very similar to me. From taking one citalopram I had a bad reaction !! and from no where Anxiety hit me...Still battling with it 3 months on..Stopping all meds now and see what happens with cbt..Good Luck
If I've learned anything in my years of being treated for mental health and my ten year journey to get diagnosed with seronegative RA is that anything is possible. However as Freud says sometimes a cigar is just a cigar. So I would consider first that you may be very sensitive to or even unable to take typical SSRI's. I have a weird body and can be very sensitive to some medications but not others. My psychiatrist and the internet in general touts the SSNRI's of more recent years and some of the newer antidepressants of more complex workings than just serotonin and norepinephrine such as 5-HT1A receptor partial agonist. They say they work way better than the old SSRIs, but for me I might as well take a placebo or a pill that just dishes out side effects. Give me some prozac, or as I'm currently taking, Luvox, and I'm typically good for a couple years at least before changing antidepressant drugs. So he knows to typically avoid the more complex, newer drugs with me. He shakes his head in disbelief, but sees the results and can't argue. When my disease is at it's worse sometimes I require more of the treatments I'm going to talk about later. The thing is that you're feeling horrible, down, like things are never going to get better and to top it off your now feeling hopeless about your options for improvement. Nobody needs that crap. Trust me. In addition I'm allergic to two food dyes and a couple popular preservatives so that often limits my options even more and often having to jump through hoops to get a particular brand of a generic or being unable to take a drug at all. First of all I'm here to tell you as someone who has suffered from Major Depressive Disorder and Complex PTSD that it does get better. You felt good before and you feel good again even if your brain is certain otherwise. Second there are a lot of options available to you. There are SSRI's, SSNRI,s, 5-HT1A receptor partial agonist, Tricyclics (Like Trazodone, which it's dose for depression is typically much higher than the sleep inducing dose), nobody really prescribes MAOI's because of all the interactions however they still exist, various low dose Atypical Antipyschotics can be super effective against depression, stimulants can be an option for some, and never underestimate the power of therapy. Therapy is one of the most effective treatments I've ever had. One of these options may not give you the same side effects you're experiencing with older gen SSRI's. I'm also going to mention that I typically keep the idea that I'm going to be on as little medication as possible to achieve the best result I can at the time. That's important because it's easy to get bogged down in so many medications that you lose yourself in a battle of trying to figure out whats a side effect and what's a symptom. So less is often more and time is your best friend because these medications do not work fully instantly. They can take months to reach their full effect which sucks because you're suffering. Most importantly communicate with your psychiatrist. If you don't feel heard it's okay to politely say that you're not sure your issues are being addressed and it's adding to your hopelessness. It's also okay that if in time you cannot form a working rapport with your doctor to choose a new one. I went through three doctors before landing on the psychiatrist I've had for 7 years. Anyway, I'm long-winded, but I hope this helps and I promise it WILL get better. There is still hope and your life will not go downhill.
Thank you for your response. Trazadone is not an opiate. Xanax though, you know id rather not take it but its the only thing that works so far.
So much happened in such a short amount of time that itll take too long to explain. But just know i hit all the stressfull events that could cause a big problem. Job related Stress, family illness, own illness, new child. The only thing that is keeping me semi comfortable and able to sleep is 25mg of trazadone and 2mg of xanax spaced out .5mg four times a day. If i deviate or add to these i start spiraling really quick. Biggest problem is insomnia and then anxiety. I never had any health issues before november 2019 when all this stuff started.
So, they 'could' start even lower and have you take paxil for a week at 5 mg and then titrate up. At that very slow interval of increasing the dose, many do not have the traditional 'start up' side effects that SSRI's are known for. They have these start up side effects that are just the body getting used to the medication and these often peter out. There are more long term side effects someone can have but gi distress would be more transient in nature and would likely go away. The really low starting dose helps with that so please talk to your doctor about that. Then when you and your doctor decide you are going to discontinue the SSRI, they slowly decrease the dose on the other end. This is the best practice for getting used to and weaning off the medication that has helped a lot of people. But everyone is different and your situation is uniquely your own.
Why are you losing your job and your family, sweetie? Because of the illness (c diff and the other) or because of the anxiety? I think it is so hard to be anxious Please know that everyone has bouts of anxiety here and there but yes, when it impacts our functioning regularly, it's time to work on it. So pat yourself on the back for doing that! What else are you doing besides medication? Are you doing talk therapy? The combination of medication and talk therapy when you have a good therapist or counselor is very healing for many. If you can exercise or get physical activity, that also is a mood lifter. Proper sleep is restorative in so many ways. Eating well. Breathing exercises and meditation. All of these things add into the mix of feeling better. But tell us more about what is going on with your situation. I'm sure sorry it is so hard right now!
More information would be helpful in offering you what we've gone through with our anxiety problems. It's a very different thing to have an anxiety problem that comes out of nowhere and to have a problem connected to very stressful events and the use of medication. Antibiotics can cause anxiety problems. And depression. It's a side effect. Insomnia can cause all sorts of problems. What antibiotics do is kill off your beneficial organisms along with the bad guys you're aiming for, and part of recovery, if it's possible, is to rebuild that colony. One way is to take probiotics and prebiotics while you're on the antibiotics and for a significant time period afterward. This is important, because these organisms also provide a lot of our mental health. Eating as well as you can possibly eat is important. Cultured and fermented foods are prebiotics, providing the crucial food your probiotics need to survive. So the first thing I'd do is go to your nearest best quality health food store and buy the best multi-spectrum probiotic you can find in their refrigerated section. That's a start. As for serotonin, this is going to sound weird, but there is no proven connection between serotonin and the causation of either anxiety or depression. This was a bogus argument made by Eli Lilly when they first came out with Prozac, and it earned them a ton of money. But it has never been proven and many have tried. We don't actually know what in the body causes anxiety or depression, which is why there is no pharmaceutical cure. So the amount of serotonin one has in one's system doesn't tell you why you're anxious unless for some reason your body can't manufacture enough serotonin in the first place. It is possible for anxious people to test low for serotonin, but know that medication doesn't increase the amount of serotonin in your brain. It causes the brain to use it differently, by preventing the breakdown and evacuation of used serotonin and the targeting of certain receptor sites so the serotonin you do have washes longer in these areas giving the effect of having more serotonin there without actually producing more serotonin. The body makes serotonin from the ingestion of certain nutrients in food, mostly tryptophan, B6 and Vitamin C. Tests can show low serotonin . Tests can also show high serotonin, as they do when people suffer a disorder called serotonin syndrome, which is almost always caused by taking too many drugs at the same time that affect serotonin. So there's that. Your problem is a different one, which is, many people suffer lots of side effects taking antidepressants, as well as other drugs. Sometimes these effects are start-up effects as your body adjusts to operating artificially. Sometimes they last. Only time can tell if you will get used to them or not. Unfortunately, side effects start right away while the beneficial effects you're seeking can take 4-6 weeks to start. Now, the big question is, if your problem is caused by the stress caused to your mind and body by being ill and the treatment for it, is taking an antidepressant the best way to treat it? You might cure it through therapy or through repairing the damage the illness and the treatment did to your body. Antidepressants offer symptomatic relief, and often that's the best we can do, but don't cure the problem; we don't know how to do that with medication yet. That's for you and your psychiatrist and doctor and gastroenterologist and psychologist to decide. But if you decide you do need medication, it's very trial and error. There are lots of different antidepressants out there. There are other categories of antidepressants than the ssris. As for Xanax, the negativity is that it's addictive, but if you only use it when necessary and not every day it's much easier to stop taking. But stopping antidepressants after being on them for awhile is no picnic either. Another problem you may be having is, serotonin is mostly found in the digestive system, so messing with it might be harder on you because of the type of health problems you had. You just have to keep trying to work on this and on fixing what broke you in the first place, and if you need medication for your anxiety, hopefully there is one out there that both works and doesn't make you sick.