Hello I am 14, and really want some questions answered. A few months ago around September, I was laying in bed singing to myself (Hay Jude) than I sort of fell asleep while singing and woke up and was like... Woah. It was so weird I felt floaty, and I told my mom, she said I just needed some sleep. So I drank water and layed in bed. My breathe was terribly shaky, and my heart was pounding I was having a panic attack. Soon enough I fell asleep. When I woke up the feeling was still there. And its been about 3months and I haven't Ben able to snap out of it or "wake up" life feels like its zooming by, and it feels like a dream. And I told my teacher, she said its "anxiety" but I shouldn't be anxious about anything! And honestly it might be depression, I was singing that "Hay Jude" song because my boyfriends name is Jude, and he lives far away. Maybe I entered some weird state of depression. But I don't know. And the feeling is most strong at night. And I get afraid to tell my mom about it but just an hour ago I told her everything, and she is going to get me an appointment tomorrow. I hope they find what is wrong, and if they can help me wake up.
Please, I just want to feel normal again that's all I want. I've already had a rough year, and I just want to feel like I'm not dreaming all the time... So please please please . I'm only 14 and I have panic attacks really easily. This honestly doesn't feel like a medical problem, it just feels so so so so weird. I'm always floating around behind some curtain of fog. And the part that freaks me out the most is that my grandmother has scystophrenia and I sometimes think it could have passed to me but. Oh please I just wanna feel normal.