It sounds like panic attacks/depression that has been exacerbated by your concern over you son. No you are not losing your mind, I would call your dr. again and ask if he could recommend another dr. you could call that specializes in this.
I understand just how you feel. My daughter and her husband went through this a while ago. It's hard because thats your baby and you dont want to see him go through this, and you want to make it all better for him. Right? But it is out of your control now. Thats the hardest, that it is out of your control. It through me for a loop. Here's my daughter, my 2 small grandsons on my doorstep OK now what? And I felt I had to take matters in to my own hands.WRONG! I was the one doing all the worring and things worked out in spite of ME. (thank God)
So ya see Mom, I think you got to step back and roll with the flow. All your worrying is not going to change anything. Talk to your son and tell him what your thoughts are and try to let it be. Support and Love him.
Hi, I am so sorry you are going through all this, but it is a mirror image of what I have been going through, mine started last December (2 weeks before Xmas, which made it worse) all I can say is just be there for him and give him love and support, its so hard to see one of your family hurting and not being able to do anything except be there, but there isnt any more you can do. Tell him that nothing stays the same and it WILL get better but it takes time, my son is on anti depressants but wont eat properly but has started back at work again, sometimes he is really bad tempered and tends to take it out on me and I get very upset but try and tell myself that its not me really but it is very hard.Hang in there and take one day at a time.
I really sympathise because all the feelings you are going through are the same as mine, and I have PVC's and it makes them worse.Your mind goes round and round but it gets you no where, I say its like a rat in a trap!!
Do lots of relaxation techniques, do you have any tapes you can listen to? It will improve. Lots of hugs, keep in touch.
LISten I UNDESTAND HOW YOU FEEL SO MUCH LOVE FOR YOUR SON. BUT HIS ACTIONS ARE HIS OWN.. HIS GIRL DOESN'T WANT THERE RELATIONSHIP FOR A REASON iF YOU LOVE HIM GET HIM INTO COUNSELING AS QUICK AS YOU CAN.. BECAUSE NUMBER ONE. HE IS SUICIDAL. AND NUMBER TWO BECAUSE HE IS YOUR SON.. NO ONE ELSES.. HE BELONGS TO YOU THE LOVING MOTHER WHO HAD HIM AND YOU ARE HAVING ALL OF THEM FEELINGS ( LOVING MOTHER ) BECAUSE YOU KNOW DEEP DOWN IN YOUR HEART , THE WAY HE IS... AND HE COULD GO OVER THE EDGE AND DO SOMETHING THAT TIME CAN NEVER HEAL. SO pleaSE JUST TALK VERY KINDLY TO HIM AND TELL YOUR HUSBAND TO DON'T PUSH HIM TO GO TO WORK hE NEEDS YOU GUYS TO FEEL FOR HIM IN A DEEP,DEEP WAY.. hE FEELS LOST i AM SURE. sO JUST FIND WAYS TO TALK TO HIM OPENLY AND GET HIM TO GO SEE A COUNSELOR.. IT WILL WORK i PROMISE. hE NEEDS SOMEONE TO JUST LISTEN. i AM SURE you AS A MOTHER IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT IF ANYTHING DOES HAPPEN. REMEMBER THAT OKAY. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT AT ALL. SOMETIMES MOMS DO TO MUCH FOR THERE SONS. AND INSTEAD OF MAKING THEM STRONGER THEY MAKE THEM WEAKER IF YOU WANT HIM STRONGER THEN DON'T BABY HIM. TELL HIM TO GO TALK TO A COUNSELOR WHO DEALS WITH THEM ISSUES.. IN A MUCH BETTER WAY THAN YOU CAN.. AND RELAX.. HE WILL LISTEN ..OK ,OK