anxiety/adhd

[chitty024]

I am a 27 year old male.  When I was 16 I was diagnosed with add and prescribed adderall.  I was diagnosed by taking some long and expensive test.  When I took adderall it made my anxiety worse and I felt like I had smoked crack.  I tried taking it several times with the same outcome each time.  I barely squeezed through high school and have continued to live with it ever since.  I am now trying to get a college degree and I am having extreme difficulties.  I have done tons of research online and I cant find one thing that my symptoms point towards.  By what I have been reading i am leaning more towards an anxiety problem.  I cannot afford health insurance so I cannot see myself going in for another long set of random test with no guarantee they will figure it out so I am here hoping someone may have an idea.

-  I have constant uncontrollable thoughts.  They are not about one specific thing, almost random even.  They are so pronounced its almost like i have to wait in line for my brain to slow down so I can speak.  These thoughts have made me extremely unsociable, untrusting, constantly worrying and wondering.  When I try to read a book, i have so many thoughts running through my head about other things i cant concentrate.  I normally forget everything i read by the end of the paragraph.

- this excessive worrying has caused me to ruin several relationships because I get paranoid and let me thoughts out.  This shows me as being untrusting which I am not I just cant stop worrying about "what if".

-  I have constant urges to be doing something.  I have a lot of trouble sitting still.  Because if this I have taken up smoking.  I believe I could easily quit if I didnt have these constant needs to be doing something.  

- I have trouble spitting out what i want to say sometimes because my mind seems to work faster than any physically activity.  Its like i spit out several words and cant find the right one or i just sit there and cant say anything.  



Out of everything I guess the main issue here is the uncontrollable thoughts.  If I can figure out a way to stop that I can handle anything else.  I actually think I have the ability to understand and learn a lot faster than most people.  It's just being able to get the information into my head to be comprehended in an organized manner.

Please anyone that has any advice it is greatly appreciated

[chitty024]

no family history of any mental issues that were diagnosed

[chitty024]

forgot to add I have a lot of trouble sleeping and my urges to be doing something also go towards food.  Luckily I have a good metabolism so i still stay healthy.  I have also tried every natural medication listed online by other sites.  I eat nutritious food and exercise regularly.