I had a five day stay at a behavioral health hospital this past week. My original diagnoses was major depression. After a few assessments, the diagnoses was changed to mood disorder- not otherwise specified (NOS). The psychiatrist that I was assigned said he didn't want to diagnose me with the most serious condition right off the bat.
I spoke with the regular therapist today and she said when I first started seeing her she diagnosed me with adjustment disorder. She told me today that she had changed her diagnoses to anxiety disorder with panic attacks.
Now, after multiple hours of researching, I've convinced myself that I have schizophrenia.
I don't have hallunations, but I believe that I'm delusional. (Clearly I am if I believed that I had various rare, fatal diseases.) I feel numb sometimes. My memory is decreasing, and it feels like it's decreasing faster. My motivations is declining quickly. I feel like there is no reason for me to go to college or get pursue any of my goals. I just want to lay in bed and not move.
My mom is calling my family doctor Monday to see about putting me on medication for the depression and anxiety.
Please tell me I'm not schizophrenia.