Glad to know that I'm not alone. Even if I eat a brownie or something, I start freaking out because I think that it's too much sugar, etc. It's weird -- maybe sooner or later I will get over it. But I have found that talking to other people about it and responding to their posts has helped me out more than I thought that it would!
So glad I'm not alone in this, seriously.
On nights when I hardly get any sleep because of a panic attack, the next day I'm worth absolutely nothing because I think my heart is working into over time just to try and keep up with me being so tired. It's a never ending cycle!
You are NOT alone! I experience the same thing daily and go through the same daily "rituals". I check my pulse a lot and will worry about everything related to my health. My very first panic attack was a few weeks after my grandmother passed away. It's a daily struggle, it really is. I remember for a while I was agoraphobic and would not go outside for anything. I didn't even drive for 2 years.
I'm scared yet I don't want to go to a doctor. I finally pushed myself after finding a lump but through a specialist and 2 ultrasounds, it was confirmed it was benign. After that incident my anxiety has come back 10 fold and the rapid heart beating has gotten really bad. Some nights I will be asleep and will wake up with my heart pounding so hard and fast that I can actually feel and hear it in my ears! Naturally after something like that happens good luck in falling back asleep which only makes it worse because you're tired, worried, and sleepy at the same time. Sometimes it will get me so bad that my body starts to get stiff and tremble as if I'm freezing and I'm not. It's so so frustrating.
Just know you aren't alone and chances are you are perfectly fine. I try to tell myself that to get to sleep at night. Sometimes watching something funny on TV will help.
PS: Does anyone ever feel like there is always something medically wrong with them, or scared that they're going to have something wrong with them each time there is a little ache or pain in their body?
I wish I could sit here and tell you that my panic attacks had something to do with me quitting smoking or going through WDs from a drug, pill, etc. but then I'd be lying. Another thing I failed to mention, was that when I was about 21 years old, I took a piece of Ecstasy pill that was bought for me by an ex-boyfriend. Keep in mind I'd never done any other drugs before that. I had an entire pill in front of me and I bit off a little piece because I didn't want to psyche myself out. Before it kicked in, I started to look up Ecstasy online, and it came up with all these anti-drug commercials that were about people who died from taking the drug at parties, and my heart started to race like it's never raced before. It was horrible. I also think that it has something to do with that -- maybe side effects that will last a lifetime?
I wish I knew the answers..
I know what you mean, and I wish I knew where to get a heart thing that you're talking about. I have an iPhone, so I sit there and fool around with the stopwatch app I have on there, count the number of times my heart beats in 10 seconds ten times that by six -- which gives me my heart rate. I know it sounds stupid, but it's the only way I know to calm myself down.
I DO know something else that's helped calm me down in the past. Going online and reading other peoples' stories about what they've gone through and what they've done to help themselves out during one of these horrible "episodes" like we go through.
When I'm going through one of my panic attacks, I always want to just jump in my car and drive to the ER because I think I'm dying. But going online and reading other people and what they've gone through's stories helps me realize that I'm not alone. I figured I would try this site out, since there seems to be so many out there like us.
i am 28 and was a smoker for about 13 years... last year around November i decided that my kids were old enough to ask me why i would go outside every 30 minutes.. i decided to quit.. cold turkey broke what was left in my pack straight out QUIT...the next day i felt a huge pressure on my chest... then i started shaking and cold sweating, my heart was pounding through my whole body... i thought i was going to die.. and i looked over at my kids ages 3 and 4 and thought i would never see them again..was it withdrawal?...maybe.. but i have had those episodes ever since. now i get them mostly at night and last about 15 minutes.. and i close my eyes and my husband rubs my back until the shaking passes and all is ok again... my number one feeling on this is to adapt.. find a comfort zone and they will get shorter as time goes by.
I am 100% just like you! My anxiety all started after a trip to the ER. Some days I feel I may slip into depression which I do NOT want. I wear a heart monitor watch..heck I sleep in it. People think I am crazy, but Im not!! What does your HR go to during your anxiety? I feel for you..I really do. You are not alone!! Hugs!!