can people relate to these symptoms?

[lily12419]

feeling like times passing too quickly and ive forgotton chunks of when things have happened
feeling like im becoming less close to people when i still am
getting spaced out feelings and finding it hard to socialise (all though im not unsociable)
feelings of being blank and detatched
feeling awkward around people i shouldnt
forgetfulness
chronic thoughts of worry about mental health, relationships, social life
feeling like im changing my style and being worried about it all though i shouldnt be
feeling like im forgetting my interests
feeling lifeless and stuck in my head then forcing myself to be happy and to get out of my own head and to be normal
feeling crazy, like my minds over run with fear and worry!
lack of sleep
weird dreams
mind chatter
intrusive thoughts
depersonalisation
derealisiation
feel like im making my worries into habits
then overanalysing my worries to see if theyre what normal people worry about or not
constantly feeling stuck in an anxiety cycle
when i feel normal i instantly feel like i can do anything that will affect my anxiety again (ie alcohol, smoking, drugs.. im not addicted or anything apart from smoking) like the anxietys gone yet i know doing these doesnt help and i then worry about me forgeting they affect my anxiety alot.
worrying about forgetting other worries! if that makes sense

theres a lot more, and im just writing all of this because my anxiety came back a few weeks ago and this is the strongest its been again and since the last time it affected me.

[lily12419]

nursegirl, with the phone thing, its basically a half hour phone call assessment to see if i need further help. its not a proper therapy session, but it is held with a therapist. after that they decide whats the next best stage for you.

also, i agree with the modern culture statement!
its hard to accept this problem considering my mental health was very healthy up until a few months back, so I just have a constant feeling of 'this isn't fair' and i am pleased with myself for seeking help and staying possitive about the anxiety, i'm trying my hardest not to let it over run my life so i'm getting help now before it develops into a disorder or anything.

[Idiotequeture]

Ok cool.
Try to give yourself a bit of a chance with all this.
As much as everyone on here with similar issues hopes and wishes, these things just don't dissapear overnight.
I know it's scary.
The way you've explained it all makes me feel like you're freaking out, like if you walked on broken glass.
The immediate reaction is that you fall and grab it and pull it out straight away because it hurts so much.
This simply does not work with the mind.
You're freaking out and trying to fight all of this worry and push it all down and it's not gonna work is it? It just winds you up more and you are adding more and more stress.

The sad thing about our modern culture is that everybody expects everything that they believe they need/want/deserve straight away. This is bad. It's a disease.

You need to attempt to step back a little bit and accept that this is happening to you, and it's not something you can just switch off.
It doesn't mean it's permanent at all though.

What do you think?

[nursegirl6572]

Listen, I agree you need further assessment, you may or may not be depressed.

I've been depressed, as a result of my panic disorder, and for other reasons, and I have have NEVER been suicidal.  Even if you don't feel your "mood" has changed per se, you still may exhibit signs of depression, such as withdrawing from social situations, isolating yourself, losing pleasure in activities you once enjoyed, being tearful, etc.

I don't understand the eval on the phone thing?  Who is evaluating you, and what exactly for?  Therapy?  You already KNOW you need therapy, I don't understand that, plus, a person cannot be properly assessed for something like anxiety or depression via the phone, that needs to happen fgace to face.

[lily12419]

the screening is an assesment to see if i need a diagnosis or not.. i already have a counciller but i needed to seek further help because, obviously when your normal mind set changes you wana seek out whats wrong with you.
maybe i do have depression, i think i felt in denial because ive never thought of myself as a depressed person :/ i genuinally thought on depression is for people who don't want to leave the house, cant get out of bed, cant socialise.
with me these symptoms feel like theyre from anxiety and its the anxiety making me feel this sub consciously... within my own personality i don't get withdrawn or feel awkward around people im outgoing. i thought all these weird feelings were from anxiety, it never ever crossed my mind that i would have depression.and ive researched ALOT into mental health problems because its only been the past few months ive had issues with them, so like i just said, im still new to this and im only going to know whats genuinally wrong after ive had my screening.
but because im new to all of this, the anxiety constantly makes me scared for my mental health i always think what if its something worse then im over aware of everything im doing and how im being etc :| i get upset over it because ive always been normal up until the past 9 months or so.

[Idiotequeture]

Well... I can really see there's something about the label, 'Depression' that you are really adverse to.

You said just now,  "I've never felt suicidal in my life".
People suffering from depression are not necessarily suicidal!

Get that idea out of your head! That's a really closed minded, view of the condition.

I don't know how much you've ever read about mental health issues.

I know for a fact that in your original post there were many things you listed that to my mind are truly indicative of a person suffering from depression.
And I will quote them now:

1. feeling like im becoming less close to people when i still am

2. getting spaced out feelings and finding it hard to socialise (all though im not unsociable)

3. feelings of being blank and detatched

4. feeling awkward around people i shouldnt

5. forgetfulness

6. feeling like im changing my style and being worried about it all though i shouldnt be.

7. feeling like im forgetting my interests

8. feeling lifeless and stuck in my head then forcing myself to be happy and to get out of my own head and to be normal.

9. lack of sleep

10. weird dreams

11. overanalysing my worries to see if theyre what normal people worry about or not

12. constantly feeling stuck in an anxiety cycle

This should help. If you still disagree that's fine.
You should definitely do the phone screening thing. I think it'd be more productive if you saw a counselor in person though.

[lily12419]

i've never felt suicidal in my life, most of the time im in a possitive mood and the only times i get down are about my anxiety, which is more worry not depression!
i'm not in denial of anything. i am waiting for a screening test over the phone then to see from then onwards if i need a therapist or not.
the fact that i have to put my self through getting help for my mental health is terrifying enough though.

[RubyWitch]

Yes, I DID have many of the symptoms you've described...........when I was diagnosed with clinical depression. (Luckily, I already had panic disorder!)

Trying to deny that we have depression only makes everything worse and delays treatment. There is no shame in having depression, but your adamant  statement that you "definitely don't have depression," is classic denial. If you are already seeking help, I have no doubt that your therapist will concur with idiotequeture and myself that you ARE suffering from depression.

Peace
Greenlydia

[Idiotequeture]

Greenlydia is correct with the depression diagnosis.
You seem defiant that it can't be depression though.
Anxiety and worry is fine as long as you aren't admitting there's depression involved too.
Most of the list of symptoms you wrote up are sideffects of depression.
Did you know this?

[lily12419]

i deffinatly dont have depression! i just worry about eveything and anything.
do you get any of these symptoms too?
im already seeking help :)

[RubyWitch]

I think you're dealing with depression and anxiety which is a nasty combo of issues since they feed off each other like sharks. I would suggest a complete physical to rule out a medical cause then seek a diagnosis with a mental health professional.

These problems are fixable, but you have to be pro-active. They very rarely just go away.

I hope you will do what you have to so you can get your life back.
I wish you the best
Peace
Greenlydia