derealization

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Hey, so to keep a long story as short as possible.

In 2002 I stupidly for the one time and one time only smoked some weed (I've never done any drugs at all before or since over than that one time). It triggered severe derealization (I didn't know what it was called at that time) the symptoms were the usual visual stuff of looking through a glass wall, hazy, lack of focus, sensory overload in busy and/or well lit environments.

Anyway after about 2 and a half years of that horror it went away and I was fine again.

Now at the time of the horror first starting I had a CT Scan within a week of smoking that horrible stuff (I thought I had brain damage). In january of this year I had a CT Scan of the brain again and to my absolute horror, after being fine for 10 years, it has triggered the dr again.

To be honest the struggle to go through this again, when I thought I had basically survived the worst horror of my life, is making me absolutely distraught - I feel like my life is now in danger of being over (as anyone who's suffering from this knows you're not living while this is going on, just enduring).

My question is has anyone had this happen from a CT Scan or from something that is closely associated to the horror that happened the first time?  

[Paxiled]

Marijuana often brings out of us things that are inside of us and we focus on them because we're high.  Now, usually, the first time one smokes pot you don't get very high, but you could be an exception.  What probably happened is that the experience frightened you and you reacted the way you did, and perhaps the CT scan also frightened you in a similar way, bringing up associations perhaps, and you're having a similar experience.